My Crazy Life

Hello World!!

2011-02-16T12:36:00.002-06:00

Man...u wouldn't believe my update if I made it up ...lol I'm here and on real internet so ..updates here they come..I hope everyone is doing ok..its been sooo long since I've done any reading..man do I need to catch up!!

Talk to u all soon

Love n Hugs,

Stephanie

3.5 months...

2010-07-05T05:07:00.000-05:00

Yea that's how long since I've last posted! Ha, did anyone wonder did I fall off the planet??

So, anyone want to back track and Mrs. Stephanie will try to bring anyone whose still lingering up to date.

1. After Easter things came to a halt with Hubby and I. We separated.
2. We did get evicted
3. I did withdraw from school which I thought I could continue in the fall. UH NO. I now have a balance of $1300. I'm heartbroken and I received a letter just last week that I have until july 31 to pay in full or I'm toast pretty much. My nursing road is halted.
4. After, a few weeks we reconciled(if you call it that).
Then life took a twist...
5. Jeff was offered a job FINALLY...
6. We packed up the house like The Beverly Hillbillies but moved to.....the COUNTRY!!! Where I have cows for neighbors instead of people. LoL its been different, kinda loney but I'm surviving.
7. So, this is where I've been. I've been still following each of you but I couldn't get my blogger figured out on my blackberry so I was reading but I felt mute because I couldn't respond. I miss all of you dearly.

I have decisions to make considering working. Josh will be 4 and he'll get to go to preschool!! I still will have Ky and I really don't want to work outside the home. Anyone out there know does in home work still exist?? I guess I could open an etsy shop for something small. I know there's moms who work in home ..now if I could just find some insight thatd be nice!

I'm sure there's things I'm missing but I'm a bit sleepy and the crew is getting up in an hour to get kat to camp!!

Alright, I'm gonna rest my head. Feel free to catch me up on anything I may have missed.

Hugs,

Stephanie

wow....it's been over a month..

2010-03-22T20:26:00.002-05:00

Well where do I even begin?

So, its been over a month and some things have changed and some not so much. Without trying to be super crazy throwing everything all out there here's the jist..............

Hubby has been unemployed now for 5 months. Ive managed to keep us afloat with income tax refund along with my school loan refund until now....I'm confident to say without the grace of God we would already be homeless. Yea financially its bad..

The last couple months my husband was starting to get very tired, like totally wore out, super thirsty, drinking fluids like no mans business. ..............any guesses

Well he was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes! Numbers so high they wouldn't register on his glucose meter. Since then (abouts a month) his numbers are in the 200's.. his vision went from bad to worse so much that he is nearsighted now. Its a lot to take in.

Meanwhile, in all this my grades in college started to slip and one by one my classes were stopped and yea last week I officially withdrewl from this semester. I've come so far to lose my road but honestly I can't even wrap my head around all this going on in my life. It seems if I work on school work, then I just care about school but if I neglect it then i'm throwing it all away i'm told. Is there a such thing as not really wanting someone to progress but playing the supportive card???

Well about 4 months ago, he started going to church with me and the kids. If your just planting your seeds in church, having faith and keeping strong is not easy by far. I don't know how to explain it but to say when you let just a little doubt in...........well you scoot back. Long before I knew it, he stopped coming with us. To make matters worse he went back to using a crutch known as pot. I was devistated, sad, mad, angry, i'm telling you like every emotion i've dealt with in the last weeks.

I've went to church trying to let go, give it to God and while i think i do, it subsides back in my heart a day or two later. I mean this whole situation with no work, no job offers, thought we're on the same page and we're not at all......was literally making me sick. My pastors wife told me sunday night..your husband is just about to kill you with the grief you're carrying you have got to let go and let me tell you ....................rain it did..................let it rain..........

The tears, the emotions, it was so strong I couldn't contain myself, I tried to control my emotions and wheew there was no holds bar.

So, this is where me .........where i've been these last few weeks...I know they're are many women out there who are in church minus there mates but they just might deal with it a little bit better than myself......I don't know..

So as I must pull up my boot straps cause my floor is needing vacuumed and if you've stuck around this long..Bless you!!!

Hugs,

Stephanie

Saying Bye didn't actually mean....

2010-02-04T15:01:00.002-06:00

I was leaving on a jet plane..don't know when i'll be back again!!

It's been over a month.. GOOD GRAVY N BISCUITS!!

I've even lost a follower...officially..

My life is crazy and filled with all kinds of craziness but I just forget to post about it.

Have a great thursday with lots of hugs,

Stephanie

Say bye-bye!!

2009-12-31T08:26:00.002-06:00

To ..........................................2009

December 31, 2009.....................and in no time it will be.........

2010 baby!!!!

I can't wait to to what God has in store for 2010!!!

Happy New Year!!!

Hugs,

Stephanie

merry CHRISTmas & a happy new year!!

2009-12-26T21:30:00.001-06:00

From our family to yours!!!

Merry Christmas & a happy 2010!!

Hugs,

Stephanie

Thoughts & Question

2009-12-05T10:36:00.003-06:00

So.......You like the updated Christmas Background??

I thought i'd revamp this and allow the christmast spirit to shine in the window..

Last night we put up our the Christmas Tree and my digital camera is down but I did take a few with my phone so..........

unless someone could tell me if it's possible to attach them from my phone to here.....or you are welcome to come see me on facebook and ALL my photos are uploaded there!! As you wish either way is okay with me!!

Ahh yes... Some know i'm a knitter and a crochet..i'm wanting to find a super easy, keep my attention hat pattern for kiddies to keep me moving, feeling worthy to give to precious children this chilly winter so if you have an idea, a link or something let me know could you?

Have a beautiful saturday!!

Hugs,

Stephanie

Have you caught on yet??

2009-12-03T11:48:00.002-06:00

Hi my name is Stephanie and I'm a emotional rollercoaster blogger!!

It's sunny outside but really I'd like to cover up with a blanket and mold into the couch!!

I hope your Thursday is a good one!!

Hugs,

Stephanie

It's Friday!!

2009-11-13T07:25:00.002-06:00

Good Morning to you!:)

I know it's been a few weeks since last posting, I have gotten horrible at keeping up on this..

Life has been crazy, real crazy..

The ups, the downs and all arounds..

The ups...My semester for school is just about a month away..wheew thank goodness..

The downs..My hubby has been out of work for the last 1.5 months..

The ups...we still have alot to be thankful for..

The downs...I don't know how christmas will look this year for the kiddies..

Which makes me really sad :(

In my latest weeks of trial..

The devil did whatever he could to take my JOY..

Do you know that he will lie, cheat and steal to take your happiness from you..

He sent me to a very down place that nobody should visit..

Being overwhelmed with the lifes burdens in todays world can take a toll..

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So this is why i've been out..I reached such a sadness and frustration in my heart that it really took ALOT of prayer to pull me out..

The beauty is no matter how far I slidback, God still wrapped his arms around me and continued to fight to pull me back up..

He is so amazing..

Well, I've got to get moving the kids have school shortly and Mrs. Stephanie is in her jams and i've got errands to run.

Have a beautiful day but do something for me...

Make note of at least one thing your thankful for everyday!!

Big Hugs to those that are still around,

Stephanie

It's Wednesday..............!!

2009-10-21T07:39:00.002-05:00

Can I get a Woowoo?

I have really no idea why I'm super loud and excited..Which you know you can express your intensity of your voice through your typing a.k.a. cyber yelling which isn't permitted in my online classes in college..HA..

And..if you knew me ..like here close in person you would find out quickly i'm not quiet..Very loud...

I'm the one parent at the sports games that is hollering every few seconds and you have many sets of eyes staring at you!!

I'm also the one that is banned from cheering in a gymnasium..HA..why oh because I echo..wheew do I echo..

I don't mean to be loud but that is just me..:)

So..it's Wednesday..and I've cleaned up for the most part besides of doing my hair..oh glory be to jesus..if you could see how long it is..you would wonder what I do with all of it..

Yea I can post a pic..as I thought you'd never ask but it'll be this evening..

So I've got to

a. Get trash outside to curb
b. Get it together to run to town
c. Get lil two together and ready
d. Get Math going cause I have class today..

I'm going to try a new thing well new to me..A list..I need to percisely write down what I want to accomplish today and i might just conquer because I am notorious for procastination!!

So you (I say you cause who knows I probably have just about one beautiful ball of sunshine stop by) ..................have a GREAT day and I shall return!!

Hugs,

Stephanie

Yes I'm here!!

2009-10-20T15:38:00.002-05:00

I'm here..

I've been around...

Toodling around blogland and i've been reading your blogs, replying for the most part..but not mustering up enough energy to post something of my own.

It's not that I couldn't find something to talk about because My Crazy Life seems to always take left and right turns ...just not sitting down to post..because i'm sure i'd ramble like I am now..

So..

Just wanted to send a shout out and I'll post another post sooner rather than later..with all kinds of juicy info..(Who am I kidding I live in Missouri..nothing exciting happens here but the weather change we face)

Hugs & I'll be back :)

Stephanie

I've been up to my eyeballs in...

2009-10-05T07:15:00.001-05:00

Laundry

Dishes

Running errands

Homework

More homwework

Supervising the kids n there homework

Mainly just running like a crazy mad woman because there isn't enough time in the day to do everything calm and collectively....

So here's to Monday!!!!

Hugs,

Stephanie

Please Would You Pray...

2009-09-23T04:05:00.003-05:00

During the time I was reading up on some blogs I read about this beautiful family.

They are the Sullivan Family and they truely need our prayers...www.bandssullivan.blogspot.com

From what I read this is a family of a Husband/Wife and a adorable baby names Chloe. The Wife named Sara had breast cancer while she was pregnant with Chloe. She had Chloe last week and they were home just two days when things took a turn and Sara began to have a seizure. Since then she was put on life support and yesterday she went onto Heaven. The Husband is now to care for Chloe...

I know that our God knows the situation and he has a greater plan than we could ever imagine..

Please I ask that you would pray for them and stop by their blog and leave some words of encouragement & love.

Thank you,

Stephanie

I know I am 1 week past last Monday posting but this will better explain what I've been up to....

2009-09-21T09:09:00.003-05:00

One long title right?

I know I stated I was to start answering your questions and believe you me ..everyday that passed I thought oh goodness, I meant to write on my blog and another day gone............

So... we have literally been at our church every night starting last monday with the exception of Tuesday......

And this is why...............And Let me say doing work for the Lord is INCREDIBLE...

Our Revival was geared toward the children BUT let me say God has a way of bringing everyone together....and Adults were touched as well..

Last night was our final night of Revival..

Everyone was praying up at the front and a young women came up and requested prayer for her shoulder. She had been in a car accident and was unable to move it and really the dr.s told her she was looking to have surgery........

This kids were up at the alter and my daughter K and another little girl E was praying. This women asked if the girls would pray for her.......as they held hands and prayed, God was touching, he was healing, his presence was incredible...

After prayer was over, she said "My shoulder, I can move it now"!!! She said it was hurting and I couldn't move it and now I can raise it up and down!!

God is so good and see my girl be overjoyed at God's healing is EVEN more AWESOME!!

I wanted to post this to give you strength today ..for whatever you are in need of in your life God will supply it!!

All you beautiful ladies have a blessed monday and I'll plan to post Q & A answers starting tomorrow....

Hugs & More Hugs,

Stephanie

Keep'em coming~~~~~

2009-09-09T16:19:00.003-05:00

Happy Wednesday to the beautiful ladies out there..... :)

I LOVE reading the questions....I'm so excited to start on them......(which will be next monday)

It's been a day of running here and there...so i'm gonna try to sneak in some MATH homework.. Lord help me with this...whip some dinner...(chicken and noodles) and get ready to head into the House of the Lord and be refreshed..

So..you pretty ladies keep thinkin of them questions and I am excited to continue reading them...as you all know i'm a talker and so these post will be quite interesting..

Hugs to each of you!!!

Stephanie

Q........&........A TIME

2009-09-08T12:41:00.003-05:00

Okay so...........

Some might not like alot of questions...........

BUT .............I do..........

So..since....I think Q & A is exciting and eventful.....

If you have any...........send them my way......and I'll be excited and willing to answer any you have........

No question is too crazy, dumb, embaressing, serious, you get it..nothing is off limits.....

So........HAVE A GREAT TUESDAY!!!

Hugs,

Stephanie

I bet you were starting to think............

2009-08-27T07:18:00.003-05:00

I did vanish huh?

I wrote that post with no intentions of like poofing into thin air and becoming M.I.A......Cause that would just be rude and I in no way wanted to send off with a rude post.....I know it's been a crazy summer, seriously oh do I know..I was starting to think well, I do tend to have crazy moments in my life I could post but really I have a love for lord so huge that you can't even measure it..and to witness to people and talking,singing, praying..to some that can send others the other direction.

~~Please also know when I ask any of you if you have a prayer request, it is meant with the highest respect..I believe in prayer, it works.. I've seen it work..~~ MckMama last post she spoke about "Being careful what you pray for, cause you NEVER know" Oh I almost fell outta my seat when I was reading it and it's just because 48 hours ago my husband and I were discussing that and how it applies to us in our home and the change of events that has transpired..)Oh did you catch that part where I wrote my hubby and I talking about prayer..(that's a whole other post of things changing)...Back to my thought..

IF YOU HAVE A PRAYER REQUEST,whatever it is, please let me pray with you..You can reach me by here, my prayer blog, facebook or email...Just so you know..

Alot has been going on & so much to write about......

For now i'm off to the shower to get ready to start another crazy............day...

For some reason here lately, their just isn't enough time in the day to get done things.....seriously I have homework stacked....(Yep Mua..)someone help me now!!

So...

Know I am here and I do ready your guys posts, not always do I reply but I do think of each of you all the time and praying for each of you..We might not all live on the same street like neighbors but you ladies are special that's forsure..

Have a Beautiful Thursday W/ lots of Hugs coming your way!!!

Stephanie

One by One

2009-08-21T02:32:00.002-05:00

One by One..............

I have lost................

Each followers interest....................

To my Blog.....................

So, .......................

I'm deciding on whether or not to close it down..................

But know i'm still here....And if you have a prayer request, please let me know.

Many Hugs,

Stephanie

Ups & Downs

2009-08-12T12:37:00.002-05:00

Through the days we live...... we are bound to travel roads that give us curvy, side roads we take..........

Without going in detail..................................

Yesterday I was broken,hurt,mad,sad,angry,upset,confused,furious,scared...and I still am.....but ...........

I am so thankful and so grateful I serve a God who loves, and cares..and he is my strength...

I posted something on facebook last night stating..God please wrap your arms around me..A friend of mine linked me to the most beautiful song...

I want to say..NO matter what you are facing he loves you with all his heart..
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Just stop and listen..close your eyes...hear the words..it will touch you I promise..

Many Hugs,

Stephanie

My lil J = 3

2009-08-08T08:55:00.002-05:00

Between my birthday and lil j's birthday there are 5 days.....

I never thought three years ago, he would come in the way he did. I was pregnant at 36 weeks and we still had not came to a decision on a name. At this time my hubby worked late hours so coming in one morning about 4, I said "We have got to come up with something because we NEVER know what might happen..." We threw around names and Joshua came out..Loved it..and DONE......or so we thought..

The previous night, I was knitting and experiencing some back pain but didn't think much of it really so as hubby was getting settled towards heading to bed, I made a pit stop at the restroom.......

Let's just say #1 didn't stop as quickly as it should of......

HA.....I stood up and you would've thought someone turned on the faucet...Now I never experienced a water break on my own but yea you know when it happens..

So here I am hollering,........and hollering......and hollering....lord only knows where my hubby is and what he's doing...

K comes running in and said "What's the matter"? ..I said hello... I've flooded the floor here, go get your father.................................

Finally, he came and seen what was all the fuss was about.....I said well, Josh decided he was ready when he heard his name...

So mind you, i'm still waiting to drain w/ a towel...trying to get all our stuff together and hubby says "Can I take a quick shower?"....oh ..sure I thought, I'm not going in where..I said you better hope to all goodness I don't start into contractions...we're gonna have issues.....

Moving forward......onto checking in..........I love when you get there and they ask you why your there and you reply.......my water broke........Are you sure they say?...Uh yea, pretty sure, if not that was alot of potty...ALOT...

Progressed well...and here he was....the smallest, precious baby i've ever had. Coming in at 7 pds even. He struggled with his blood sugar so it was debated for him to go to NICU but ended up going to nursery. To this day you can see the little pricks on his heels from where they tested him every hour the first 24 hours..We'd have to have I believe so many good numbers in a row.. and if we had to good sets and then a bad number, we'd start ALL over....

For him coming a month early, he is healthy for the most part...He does seem to get chest congestion colds easy and requires inhalers at those times but other than that..he's okay...He is our smallest kid..My first two came in at 8"13 and 8"12, (talk about PAIN) Holy Guacamoli... and my last girl was 8 even....

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Having told lil J's story...we're switching gears because also this week we are POTTY TRAINING.......WooHoo.......

Anyone that has had two in diapers at the same time.......let me say......you feel like your drowning in the sea of potties & poo's..........

My first two were diaperless at 2 weeks shy of 3.....

Now lil J on the other hand, he has been going okay but becoming diaper free wasn't going so well...

UNTIL NOW.....................................................

I am happy to say Day 3 and we are crusing awesomely.......

Day 1 went great
Day 2 minor accident, going on his own.
Day 3 completely out and done ....crossing fingers...

Our first day I seriously thought we were gonna wear out the carpet going every 30 minutes...The end of the first night he'd say "I'm so tired"...lol..

Bittersweet.....eventhough I'm glad that just one more year and diapers will be a thing of the past..but sad to know no more babies... :(

Now that i've kept you this long, I should tell you my humorous part with my youngest..

lil k is my most patience taker, most awnry, most emotional, most dramatic, child I have .....MOST high maintenence...

As she has seen her brother go potty for a few months now.......she has come to the conclusion.......she can too.....................STANDING UP!!!!!!

Trying to tell a one year and explain she can't stand and potty ...isn't easy.......no matter what i say she'll take her diaper off and stand on her tip toes..just hoping her potty will curve and hit the tiolet..........It's funny on one end but not so much cleaning up her messes......

Surely within the next year she'll transition into sitting ............right?.....or i'll have to get her the female funnel to potty in ...........Can you imagine........I'm not even gonna go there..........

So......I'm off to clean the house up for some cake and ice cream to celebrate my handsome boy turning 3 today!!

Many Hugs & enjoy your weekend...

Stephanie

Whose turned 31?

2009-08-03T17:06:00.002-05:00

Any Guesses................

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Yep, it's me..

Today is mua's birthday..

I have alot more to post but this is the short version as we're off to prayer meeting at church..

Hugs,

Stephanie

While I'm waiting..

2009-08-01T13:19:00.002-05:00

I know I've been M.I.A for the most part..Going through some things..

I am gonna throw this out there and ask if any of watched 'Fireproof' The movie?..If you haven't...oh ladies do I recommend it...

Wheew...

The other night I was on fb and I pulled up the movie to which their are many clips of pieces in the movie AND songs...

I really had no thoughts to describe my inner being ..so I clicked this video and yea it was everything I was wanting to say..

So here's the lyrics and down below is the video..

Remember If you have a prayer request please send me an email or leave a message..

Hugs to each of you,

Stephanie

While I'm waiting

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Takeing every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord

@@Baby Stellan@@

2009-07-26T14:55:00.003-05:00

Prayers, Prayers, Prayers....... He's very weak, his SVT is taking a toll..he's clammy, pb is low, extremities are cold...

Oh God, Take care of this precious child..His parents need your love, strength, support..you are a mighty god and you know the plan for Stellan..

Please take time and pray for them right now..

Hugs,

Stephanie

And Then Their Were Two

2009-07-19T00:38:00.005-05:00

So......

I made the note in my last post I was going to make this next post better......

In the last 24 hours, I have had 2 women come to me for listening ears.. I am by no means a therapist, a genius, a know-it-all..but there is a few things I have come to realize..

For different reasons they came to me..and I believe without a doubt it was God's work. Back at the beginning when I first started this crazy blog thought..I thought who really is going to read my nonsense, crazy life anyhow..

BUT..

12 people later.. a few that stop by also.. I must say something to brighten their day..

Tonight, something spoke to me as I was looking at my bible sitting here on my desk..and I heard this thought (and no I've not lost my ooples) start another blog..

DO WHAT..

Another one..

I'm doing well honestly to keep on top of one let alone TWO..

Eventually this post will get underneath the others BUT.. over on the right side is a block....

It reads Prayer Requests and a link .. www.lordisourstrength.blogspot.com to my othe blog.. titled

..Matters to you matters to him..

So please if you would like to leave a request for whatever it might be..please do so..

No request is minimal..No request is silly..Each and everyone ..that matters to YOU matters to HIM.

Hugs,

Stephanie

I found a Giveaway

2009-07-19T00:07:00.000-05:00

I found Sarah's Blog http://the-e-family.blogspot.com/through Jill at http://sophieblair.blogspot.com/...

And Mrs. Sarah is giving away a BEAUTIFUL package for her One Year Blog..versary..

So..here it is.. http://www.the-e-family.blogspot.com/2009/07/happy-blogoversary-and-giveaway.htmland go check it out!!

Hugs,

Stephanie

Yes I'm still around ......believe it or not!!

2009-07-18T18:11:00.002-05:00

I know.....I've went on Blog Haitus.......

I haven't felt the best........

I've had the worst headaches in my whole 30 years of life..........

They don't seem to be leaving...........or stopping..............

Makes me for a uncheery person................

But I'm reading my bible and still praising the Lord..........

I'll be back to post something a bit more exciting than this.........

Hugs,

Stephanie

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2009-07-17T22:15:00.001-05:00

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Today..........Take 2

2009-07-10T14:30:00.003-05:00

I started my title and then I hit a button and Poof. it sent it..so let's try this again.

It's Friday.........

Kat's coming home today...........

It's been a long week................

I'm sorry I haven't posted the last two days..............

Wednesday.. I was quite the hormonal mother..and ran through every emotion in a 12 hour period I do believe...Ending the day the best ever........In church and Praying..What a blessing ..as I sat at the alter and just let it out..And felt a huge relief..

So.........remember the last I spoke about paying in forward.. just doing one thing for someone..and what the blessing would be and in return you will recieve a blessing by God..

I did just what I said because really that would be crazy if I said it but didn't do it...

So I went and rounded up the clothes my kids have outgrown and posted them to freecycle.. They been picked up throughout the week and still going for tomorrow..
Also went poking in our storage....Giving it away..Anything that we DON'T use it's going on down..

Let me say it feels so good to bless others..No matter what the circumstance is..just a random act of kindness is soo beautiful..

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This week overall went really well...

I'm excited to see my girl tonight...I so hope she returned with all her stuff!!

That's it ..nothing to loud and crazy here......Just a few days recap in My Crazy Life!!

Have a beautiful weekend

Hugs,
Stephanie

Hmm..This & That...

2009-07-07T22:33:00.005-05:00

Honestly ....

I think today has dragged on forever enough~~

Let's roll backwards.............

K..my babygirl..yes who will be 11 soon ..HA..woke me up and let me say..her voice can carry~~~... At 7 a.m. wheew ..She's all HI MOM!! What a HELLO!! BUT I was soo glad to hear her voice so all was well.. She was off to a day of breakfast..swimming..paddle boating...awww..How cute..that would've been to see..more eating..(and she is EATING..awesome ..one worry down..HA..more swimming..and service which she really enjoys(the best part)I enjoyed listening too..

Oh and back to the swimming and water....
Okay so this right here....

Honestly has been the talk of the house since we started discussing camp really....

Seeing pictures of children ~~FLYING~~through the air..Oh makes my stomach raise into my throat..

All I can picture is someone jumping on the blob and K going so high..

Well..

This morning when she shouted HELLO...lol..She said Mom, We're off to play in the river and go check out the BLOB..oh talk about praying..praying..

As I drilled and drilled..DO NOT ENTER THAT WATER UNLESS YOU HAVE A VEST STRAPPED TO YOUR BODY!!...

So..this is how our conversation went this afternoon:

K~ Hi Mom, How are you? What are you doing? I hear Ky aka lil k screaming..

Mom~ Hi Honey, I'm fine ,How are you ..good ..fantastic..me too .. yea ky is mad..Her and lil J are not getting along the least bit. today..

Mom again~ You eat today?

K~ Yea for breakfast I had Eggs, Sausage, Toast, ..Sheew she ate like a queen..HA.. and for lunch Corndogs..

And Mom the best part..I went on the BLOB..oh jesus I thought..lord do I want to hear what's coming out of her mouth next?

K~ The first time she said..I just popped of a little ..didn't get very high.....

AND THEN..

Someone bounced onto it ..and mom no kidding I flew like 7 feet in the air....

HA>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>.

Now tell me I was so hoping her 7 ft. and my exact 7 ft. were so unaccurate..

I'm like you so better be careful..and Kat..really you might want to keep the 7ft. distance on the down low from your father..He will prob. have a anxiety attack..

K~~Oh and I road the paddleboat today..It was so fun..We went out and out..oh heavens to betsy ..I kept thinking..

I kept praying lord keep my baby safe..let her have a best time but keep her safe~~

So loved my call from my girl..

Not loving how lil k & lil j woke up with the intent this morning to drive their mother bonkers....

Let's see ..I finished paperwork for fall semester..just awaiting date for pickin my good ole books!!

I do want to say that I am so thankful, blessed to be the recipient of a blessing I recieved last week!!

Let's see here....As long as I've been in college ..which honestly is not as long as it feels its been.. I have broke my classes in between on campus and online..well..of course since I have a hubby, and two children who love the computer and tinker on it..finding time to do my own school work without loosing a substantial amount of sleep is far and few between..

So..mom has NEEDED/wanted a laptop..Would make life a bit easier..

and...some have heard of Freecycle..some say it can be awesome at times..

I thought well all else fails I can get one in Oct. when my student loans come in but in the mean time..let's just really pray for this ..and put a note out their looking for one.. I did post and ta da..response the next day!!

This person said he had one ready, just sitting here..and his words were it can be yours!! Say What..Do What..? Yes, yours .. I fix these and give away!!

I know.. some are thinking.. if it sounds to good to be true..probably is..NOT IN THIS CASE..

After running a few errands..I sped home in my soccer mom van..steamed full ahead to my desk here.. and plugged her in(my pc)and oh she is B-e-a-t-i-f-u-l!! I was dancing with the laptop..really I was hugging it and crying because I was so thankful, I mean so grateful for ones kindness to do something for others that they by no means had to do..

So...now i'm waiting to get a router for it**wheew**some are expensive..but I can't wait to use it..No more having to worry about my school stuff dissapearing with a poke of ones finger!!

So in that thought.. With all the odds and ends items around here that are getting dusty I'm posting them on freecycle for others to use..

And so I'm thinking...I encourage each and everyone to do a random act of kindness..no you don't have to go way above and beyond..a little goes a LONG ways!!

Last thought..my last post..had something to do with reading...and I was told ..books are on the way!! So shopaholic reading here I go!! In some ways not a shopaholic..others yes..I guess for corny things like fabric and yarn..eventhough I have yet to sew a stitch or continue ones blanket I started..it is like it calls you near..HA.. So..Mrs. Jill ..I'll be watching out the glass door!! HA..

I need to be shopping for a new purse..that is for sure ..soon real soon!!

So..K called awhile ago to say Goodnight..To hear her excitement and how much fun she's having is all worth the quiet here!! I think she just likes the use of that phone..hopefully she'll remember when she returns mommas taking it back..HA..lol

Hugs & thanks for stickin it out through this long post!!

Stephanie

Missin My Girl..........

2009-07-06T16:31:00.003-05:00

I miss my girl.........

I wrote on facebook.....I miss my Girl.....One wrote grab a book(which i'll admit isn't one of my most favorite things to do, it has to be very real and catch me at a HELLO!!)..lol

Next. Sewing..Uh..the thought gives my blood pressure some raising..HA..Sounds like ALOT of fun though..
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My 10 year that thinks she is tooo BIG for her skirt...

She called this afternoon ..which was about 2 p.m. ..

I heard her voice say Hi Mom..and yea I'll say it ..I teared up..

I was strong this morning..I just teared a minute or two........I was driving her to church and looked in my rear view mirror and she smiled so beautifully...

Time has went slow today..

I need to really find something to keep my brain busy...

Or I'll be wondering if she's:
Minding in Service

Eating

Bathing

Brushing

Sleeping

Consuming Food of any Goodness

Checkin out Boys

Minding her manners..lord knows she tends to slip at home..

Hopes to all goodness she thinks before she speaks..

O well..Nothing I can do about any of this but pray, pray and more prayer that she comes home blessed with a fresh spirit(and not as much attitude).

Love & The evening is Drawing Near..

Hugs,

Stephanie

Blessed Be Your Name

2009-07-05T00:18:00.007-05:00

Yes it's Sunday morning........the wee itty bitty hours..and I really have nothing to say..that is exciting anyhow..

I took a few pics of our 4th..so yea take a peek if you wish..and I'm off to get some little zzz's..cause today's is SUNDAY..and in a few hours i'm going to PRAISE THE LORD..in his house!! The lord is soo refreshing to me and I truely can't thank him for everything he's done..

Love & Yea today is it ...last day until my girl is off to camp!! Tonight, she says "Mom, I am gonna miss you this week".. Aww..whether or not she can test my sanity and patience like she did just this morning, it still makes you jello inside to hear those few words!!

Next time I'll be posting with off to camp pics!! Cmon Kleenex's.HA

Hugs,

Stephanie

Happy 4th!!

2009-07-04T09:12:00.003-05:00

I am sending Wishes for a Beautiful Happy 4th Independence Day!!

I hope everyone is having a Blessed Day and a Relaxing Weekend!!

K is packed & ready for Camp!! Everything is ready including a phone for her to take for need be..

She's off to a week of refreshing,praying,worshipping,activities,meeting new friends swimming, and everything else she'll be doing for 5 days!! I think the thing that gets me is she has for the most part been at home. So for 5 whole days I won't know what she is doing at what times. I just leave in Gods hands that she will have a great time and get out of camp whatever it might be she is searching for(excluding boy looking)!!

So.....Wishing you happiness on this Holiday....

Hugs,

Stephanie

Plans...for ...4th of July .........Independence Day!!

2009-06-30T15:30:00.005-05:00

And you all thought I up and poofed..gone again........

HA not so fast..

So..everyone knows..the 4th is right around the corner...(Saturday to be exacto)

I was leaving a comment for McLinky...www.mycharmingkids.net..and on there I found a comment by a women and her post caught my eye. She said she would do a link up from her blog..http://www.justafatgirlsblog.blogspot.com back to MckMama...

Now that I've totally confused you...www.justafatgirlsblog.blogspot.com is having a Giveaway..

Her idea...

Post your plans on blog, fb, or somewhere she indicates ..what your plans are for the 4th.. of July.. I am prob. one of the least busy mommas this weekend so here it goes...

My hubby works from Tues-Sat.. and he offered to work on the 4th..Holiday Pay is always a treat..right?

We live in the city and really I'm not excited about spending $$ for fireworks... a few things.. I imagine we'll do but if I get my hubby in that white tent ..I will have to pull him out before they offer him anything extravigant..cause he won't say NO..well just to ME!!

This holiday is also bittersweet as the 3rd of July will mark 10 years since my father in law..has passed away. This also marks 10 years that I miscarried twins ..very early in pregnancy) so having said that..we just make the most of this beautiful holiday and be thankful for all the service men and women that have risked their lives for us!!

**ALSO** If you have seen my Ticker...This momma has just a few days until K is leaving for camp..Honestly I am VERY excited for her.. and let me say in the last day she has repacked and refolded the few items in her suitcase. HA.. Just sitting at the dining room table yesterday and watching her sit on the couch I started to tear up..I can't believe she is almost 11, going to church camp, entering the 5th grade..See my eyes tear up just thinking about it..

Sunday we'll have a after service get together with some yummo to celebrate the fourth..and we'll be praying for beautiful blessings for all those leaving the next morning...TO CAMP!!

Well this is it..Nothing exciting really..

Just another day in MY CRAZY LIFE!!

Tell me what are YOUR 4th of July Plans?

Hugs & Tissues,

Stephanie

EVERYTHING to ME!!

2009-06-25T21:19:00.005-05:00

I ask that because you took the time to come visit my blog that you would ease your mind, rest your heart and read the words to this beautiful song. This song is another one of my favorites. If you really hear the words..absorb them into your soul you will feel so blessed.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eFOQHT3mn5Q

I grew up in sunday school
I memorized the Golden rule
And how Jesus came to set the sinner free
I know the story inside out
I can tell you all about
The path that led Him up to Calvary
But ask me why He loves me
And I don't know what to say
But i'll never be the same
Because he changed my life when He became...

Everything to me
He's more than a story
more than words on a page of history
He's the air that I breath
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything, everything to me

We're living in uncertain times
And more and more I find that i'm aware
Of just how fragile life can be
I want to tell the world I found
A love that turned my life around
They need to know that they can taste and see
Now everyday I'm praying
Just to give my heart away
I want live for Jesus
So that someone else might see that he is...
You're everything to me
You're more than a story
More than words on a page of history
You're everything to me
You're more than a story
More than words on a page of history
You're the air that I breath
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
You're everything to me
Lord, you're everything to me

Today as I was rushing around to do a few daily duties as the lady of the house..I was standing at the kitchen doing some dishes..This very song came to my mind and I began to sing it in my mind. As I went on I had to stop but I just felt the Lords presence over me and I began to cry tears as I mouthed these very words...

He's everything to me...

The AIR I breathe...

The water I thirst for...

I want to do whatever it takes to be a witness and open other people up to how wonderful our god is!! I encourage others to let HIM be not just a part of your life but a huge being of yourself.

Our God is ....

Our Rock

Our Strength

Our Counselor

Our Father

Our Best Friend

Anything that YOU need ...

Physical, Spiritual, Emotional healing...

He is Right there...Reach out and touch HIM!!

So.. What is HE to YOU?

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Hugs,

Stephanie

P words (I for warn you now..this is one of my CRAZY moments)

2009-06-23T09:25:00.003-05:00

I first want to say that my ULTIMATE favorite P word is PRAYER...

Prayer- is the act of attempting to communicate with a deity or spirit. Purposes for this may include worshipping, requesting guidance, requesting assistance, confessing sins, as an act of reparation or to express one's thoughts and emotions.

I believe in Prayer whole heartedly..I love to pray..When I was younger I attended church a few times BUT when I was 29 last Father's Day did I give myself to the Lord. I have had some battles this last year..BUT I do know that our God is our Strength, our Rock, our Provider, our best Friend. When you feel ALL alone he is right there..just reach out and touch him.

Prayer gives us comfort and peace and our God hears our prayers. We even myself have to remember that it is God's timing not my timing.

When a person being through a blog or someone in my church ask for prayer. I take that and do just that..

God hears our Prayers so please know that no matter what when you are praying, calling out to God..he takes his arms and wraps them around you.

Having said all of this to say........If anyone has a prayer request, please let me know. You can contact me through here or on the right is my email address...

.................okay switching gears here....................................

If you were to grab a dictionary you could open it and find many ...interesting words..some more intriguing to read than others.......

However,

My post today is brought by the letter P..................HA

So...

I have some P words that I enjoy ........

One that I LOVE

and some..........

NOT SO MUCH....

My lil K & our P words.....

Please...

Pizza.......

Pop..

Potty & yea P..P

This child.. my daughter isn't 2 yet but she really is pushing my WHITE not grey hairs literally out. She thinks because brother lil J can do his business in the B room than well why can't she... UH HELLO..Trying to explain why her being a girl aren't able to do things like her brother.. AHEM.. isn't working so well...

Everyone knows ..hopefully..a favorite song of mine is 'I am Free'.. I love it .. when it hits the radio in the car.. I turn it up and yes I am a car singer and LOVE IT.. lil K takes it really to heart and shreds all articles and so...............

I went in this morning to get her up and YEA......she was FREE..

Oh Jesus Help Me!! I ask her where are your clothes and diaper?

Uh ...I dunno know.....and I found them on the floor..I said k madison did you take your diaper off..

And she is knows when she is in trouble she takes her arm and covers her face..she says YES.. I go Potty!!

I know their are parents who potty train at her age..But I just don't know what to do with this. I can take her to do her business in the B room but again she thinks she can STAND......AHHHHH...
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So this is my CRAZY moment.........and it's not 10 a.m. yet.

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Hugs & lots of water because it is SCORTCHING HOT today......

Ding....Ding.Ding....I've found another GIVEAWAY!!

2009-06-23T08:12:00.001-05:00

I know .. I know.. my kitchen is screaming.. my vacuum is taping my foot.. BUT.........

Mrs. Stephanie found another giveaway & about fell outta my seat .....why you ask.....it has to do with YARN..

HA!!

Momma B @ http://sjeza5.blogspot.com/ is having a GIVEAWAY.. It is a BEAUTIFUL brown/ blue clutch purse...

Gorgeous..Gorgeous..

She has started with opening an Etsy Store and letting all us beautiful people about it.

So.. scoot on over and go peek at the giveaway!!

I almost forgot .........Tell Momma B I sent ya and double the treat!!
Hugs,

Stephanie

I've found a GIVEAWAY..

2009-06-23T00:20:00.004-05:00

Don't you just love how you find new blogs just by the click of the mouse. I found Lisa through her blog http://quiltinggirlinok.blogspot.com/ from ANOTHER blog I enjoy reading....

ANYHOOT,

Due to her 25th post, Lisa is having a GIVEAWAY...

It is made by http://www.myprivatequarters.com/ and it is a Beautiful Head Massager!! Now call me crazy but How relaxing would it be to have your Head massaged. Personally, for me to have my hair brushed is totally relaxing so having my head massaged is just lovely.

So Please Go......Run over www.quiltinggirlinok.blogspot.com and Follow instructions for her Giveaway!!

Prayer.......IT WORKS!!

2009-06-19T10:11:00.003-05:00

I want to put focus on Baby Stellan..

The last 24 hours have been a roller coaster ride for them...

Baby Stellan needs our prayers.....

His mom & dad need our prayers...........

PRAYER does WORK...so please join in prayer.......

GO visit her page and leave a few words of encouragement.

Thank you,

Stephanie

......Hmmmmm...........................

2009-06-17T04:19:00.005-05:00

I stopped to ponder my title for this post and AHEM.......nothing..

Not really sure what that is all about as all of a sudden I can't spit out a delicate title.. This women of many thoughts and yet no post title ..Odd I know..

If you wondering....No I haven't had anymore episodes of forgeting my children at school..LOL.. Miss K made sure on Monday that I knew school let out and 2 ..Gee ..they really think mom would forget twice..Not gonna say it won't happen again someday but let's hope not for a LONG while!!

Well we've hit WEDNESAY..and PRAISE GOD..we have service tonight because I am patiently waiting until we go.. The clock says 4:24 a.m. Oh goodness I still have 14 hours to go..HA..

Nothing compares to the breath of air you feel when you open the church doors and walk in. A person can be weighed down with many burdens and yet when you turn the door knob and enter ... oh it's breathless... I have felt it..I have encountered periods of time in my life where emotionally and spirtually all I could do was gather myself together and I felt so broken that I have literally hung over the alter pew. To let out all my tears, all my fears, all my burdens, ask for forgiveness for my short falls and NOTHING..NOTHING compares to the unconditional love our god gives us. To feel the Lords presence in your life..is PRICELESS..

I'd have to say a new favorite song of mine is 'Savior Please'..Oh it really can touch your heart and I recommend anyone to pull it up ...Love It..
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As one can see I have yet to finish my Anniversary Post.. AHEM..
My mind has been filled with lots of stuff..so yea...still working on it..

Then I just realized uh....Father's Day is on SUNDAY... oh Jesus help me!!

I won a scrapbook through Polly's Path blog..(Love her blog..You can find her blog below on the right.. I could insert it here and make it look cute but I have no clue so there is my shout out)..

Yea back to that book..uh .. days are ticking down and oh help me I HAVEN'T started yet.. and I also thought well that blanket I was making for my husband I could give that to him for Father's Day..HA HA .. Until I realized that it's just around the corner..No matter how fast I crochet .. that would be considered magic to have it done ...

That blanket..I have got to get with it..I took a few days off but having been making progress and I so need to get it done before semester starts again..FYI that is in AUGUST..oh Jesus Help Me!!

It seems to be the older I get.. not that i'm again rapidly.. do I lose a handle of time..and some days I am on to getting things accomplished and others not so much..maybe I need time management skill help..HA>.. OR maybe it is the fact that my YOUNGER two are about to take my patience to a WHOLE other level...

Oh and I am NOT kidding when I say another level..because them two together are like peas & carrots of naughtyville.. They mize well be twins eventhough they are a year apart..It's like they have a secret language and they are in cahoots to drive this momma batty..

For instance I didn't think yesterday was EVER going to end..

Two monkeys jumpin on the couch..

Using toys to manuver flippin over the back of the couch..

Sneakin upstairs and climbing on the bunk beds...HELLO.. can I say broken arm.. or LEG..and these kids are NOT very old almost 2 & 3..

OH miss lil K deciding to AHEM..be free of all clothing and under accessories..yea at first I chuckled but NO MORE!!

She thinks because her bubba can do things standing.....AHEM.. so can SHE..not gonna happen..

OH the potty training.. let me have my moment here..my lil J will be 3 in August..and the other two had NO problems transitioning over at 2 weeks before turning 3 but this one..OH BOY.. I am beginning to wonder ..He can do either business not a problem and he'll even go when needed BUT if he is in big boy pants...AHEM..doesn't or won't go when needed.. WHAT IS THAT ALL ABOUT..

I know something is gonna have to give..before my sanity does..It is for sure no two kids are alike.. all my children are beautiful blessings and don't get me wrong because I do cherish my kids..but wheew..it is never a dull day..lil K is getting so big..she isn't 2 yet but it seems she is getting so big, advancing faster than the others..oh time stand still..let her be 2 and not jump to 12 so fast I lose sight of her milestones.

It is amazing when I turn on music that I start chattering.. and chattering.. boy this post is gonna be long winded.. I do apologize..oh goodness it's 5 am.. I like the quiet at this time.. I won't like the tired part later but as long as I don't fall asleep in church..AHEM..then I'll be good..:)

Well K participated in a walk a thon for church last saturday in efforts of raising money for camp..

CAMP..

NOT WITH HER FATHER & I...

AWAY FOR A WHOLE WEEK.....

FIRST TIME EVER...

GOODNESS GRACIOUS...

Just a couple weeks and she'll be off to camp for a whole week..where she'll be out..doing things..

Having a sleepover with a friend is one thing but actually gone for a WEEK..where I won't have a play by play of what's going on...Their will be alot of deep cleaning that week..

If I cry when my kids sing in the choir at church(everytime because they melt my heart) then I will be a bumbling mess on July 6th..I guess I could get a ticker countdown..lol..to help me ..oh goodness..

Well enough rambling..

We had baseball last night.. again on this friday..Next week we have 4 count them FOUR games.. I see alot of grey hair sprouting then..and yea I have some now..lol..they seem to sprout at the front.. WHAT IS THAT ABOUT anyway?

Hugs & Love on This Wednesday!!

Stephanie

Oh No You Didn't!!

2009-06-12T22:57:00.002-05:00

Today is Friday..and is also June the 12th A.K.A my Wedding Anniversary..TEN years..

I had a post going and it is still incomplete so it's drafted for now until I can finish it..

I can however give you something to laugh about because seriously everytime I think about it .... I can't help but laugh..

Okay so today is...........................FRIDAY!!

And my older two attend.....................SUMMER SCHOOL!!

And on FRIDAYS they dismiss ................EARLY!!

Well..honestly my brain was all but scattered all over..............!!

Monday-Thursday Mrs. Stephanie leaves around 1:30 to get in line and yes they don't get out until 2:00 p.m. BUT we have parents their that get there WAY to early and because I'm too lazy to park and risk getting RUN over I do the drive thru pull up!!

On Fridays granted i'm supposed to be out the door around 12:30..........................BUT

YEA............

TODAY...........

I am tootling along making my husband some lunch and.....................

YEA UH HUH............

My phone rings.....................................................................................................

MOTHER............

IT'S ..............FRIDAY..........

LOL>>>>>>>

Yes......... I forgot to PICK UP my children.........!!!!

Who forgets to pick up their children!!

Uh HELLO me right here!!

I could NOT believe I did that.. I go Oh My Goodness K I will be right there..

As I bull doze out the door I holler it's FRIDAY.. yea my husband says .....AND ..

UH our children are sitting up at school on a bench because their mother totally wasn't paying attention!!

Oh..this is one of those moments that your child will NEVER let you forget!!

Now I still laugh because well it is kinda funny now but i'm sure the teacher thought.. oh huh..uh.. nice try leaving your children........CRAZY LADY!!

I will get it together to post my intentional today post tomorrow..

Hugs & many Blessings,

Stephanie

A Play

2009-06-10T09:14:00.003-05:00

No .. we don't have to run to New York to watch a Show..

Right in lovely Missouri could you see a beautiful reinactment..

No.. I won't be wearing my ball gown or glass slippers..

I have my mop on my left and my gloves on the right...

I will now toodle off to my duties as the women who cleans in Cinderella..

LOL...Yea Am I the lucky one this morning...

Hugs & to a more filling post later!!

Stephanie

Ali.Ali...Oxen.....Free...

2009-06-03T10:12:00.002-05:00

Yea.uh that title just shot out there.. so going with it!!

Wheeww..So it's been what like FOREVER since I last posted...

Reading back..I have really notta clue where I left off so... Mrs. Stephanie is gonna wing this ..feel free to climb into my plane and join me on this ride..

So.........

1. Semester of college ended...PRAISE GOD...because honestly I thought at one point I was entering a state of breakdown... Overall did fairly well..Well honestly I tanked Math..LOL...Math has never been a subject of mine. I initially when looking into college wanted to be a Surgical Tech..and then when I seen the math credentials..OH NO >> not going there.. So next thing in line NURSE>.....I know I'm really gonna have to book it this next semester..***Note to self(No late nights tending to my farm on fb**)

2. Mrs. Stephanie has also been contemplating working next fall ..when the kids go back into school.. If I thought this last semester was crazy....I better hold onto my skirt because this one could be quite challenging...

But ......really what do I do my husband does work a job..but with 4 kids....hello.. it is still tight.. but realistically...uh I'm only one person here ..... Women as we know are spread thin enough so for me to work too.. I'm honestly scared...So..moving on..

3. We finished soccer last saturday..J really pulled out all the stops the last 2 games..usually he gets tired out by the end of the season BUT.....one game 5 GOALS>.... Ladies..I about shouted.. and did kart wheels..Okay..not the kart wheel part but yes .. I was one screamin lady out there..cuz everyone knows generally i'm not the quiet one.......HAHAHA

4. Miss K arm all good and done... Lookin forward for her to blossom in the fall with soccer..Help expend that sassy mouth.Lord help her..Maybe it's her hitting that stage or age.. who knows.. but I do alot of counting and praying on her behalf..

5. Baseball is going on still...J is pickin up speed on hitting.. at the beginning you would prob. here my mouth expend...arm ....raise it up and out but now... ZIPPIDY ZIP.. and man he hits it out..

6. The school year ended..they had a 2 week break and.........yes i'm the mean momma ..they have entered the dreaded Summer School...Now there are pros and cons to this.. Pros...they get ready for the next year and don't lose so much learning that they have memory banked in....Cons would be the outrageous traffic congestion I encountered to pick them up...oh .. I finally after almost 10 sitting in the turning lane knew I wasn't moving anytime soon so I parked it and walked across the street...WELL...more like power walked..and I was tired out...ya I don't get much exercise.. Pros.. a few hours without hearing I'm bored...I'm hungry..What happened to the imagination and playing outside......HMMMM

7. My most exciting news..

Our church last sunday held a Friends Day Service.. We had almost 130 visitors...WOO HOO>. I was astounded..at the amount of people walking in ..I felt so blessed and honored to be a part of this celebration.. There were a group of us that handed out 3000 flyers to homes and even were intitled to bless people at our walmart stores.. It was incredible that is one word..To know that they felt compelled to come for whatever reason..The seed has been planted and I know God is so Awesome and our pews will continue to fill up..

Being a part of this Outreach Team and walking and meeting people was and still is a beautiful thing.. Oh absolutely was I tired.. oh I could've crawled the next morning but I know it's all worth it..

Really not much new going on..

Let's see...Bits & Bites.

House is still crazy looking....Don't have no idea how it ends in a matter of destruction after it was clean just last night...

Ball got rained out last night in the 3rd inning.. drop..drop..sprinkle..sprinkle..down pour..and POURING..it was cooled off from the upper 80 temps we'd had.. so yea my smaller two were getting panicky.

Picked up crocheting again....Boy how I wish I will speed through it quicker.. I'll have to post a pick of progress.. Maybe like a weekly one.. that'll motivate me to really move on it .. I wouldn't hear my husband repeatedly ask how is it going..Every other day...

Okay..It's time to put on your jump packs...I have babies fussing and making more messes..

Ready......................1..................2...........3...

JUMP...........

Hugs,

Stephanie

P.S.. Thank you to those who have stuck around..I needed a blog break..after awhile it can ..lead one to needing a breather..

Marco..........................................................Pollo......

2009-06-02T11:48:00.003-05:00

Yea.. that is right..

Mrs. Stephanie is Back.........................

Muaaaaa... and I bet you thought I dropped off and flew far ...far... away!!

I could almost bet.. I've prob.. slowly lost each & every one of you 10 beautiful peeps.........Oh lordy bee...

Post is coming tonight...(wrapping my head to get all the bitsy bites rollin & out!

Hugs,

Stephanie

What Doesn't Make Us Crumble.. Will Make Us Stronger**

2009-05-13T10:56:00.003-05:00

I know... I know.. those aren't the exact correct words.. but you get where I'm heading ...

Making this short & sweet..

Mrs. Stephanie is finishing up with studying for finals..Lord Help Me..Survive..

I have my heart and mind with Aimee & Adam Freeman..Continue to take some time to lift up prayers for them..Kayleigh is so precious and eventhough I believe God's plan is supreme..I still have the questioning of why on these matters..We have to believe in our God's reasoning that it's his plan of timing.. NOT OURS!!

The love Aimee & Adam have for God and the strength with love wrapped around it is unmeasurable..

FYI... If you watch the show "The Doctors" you should sit, watch and DVR like me today because This Precious Family will be on there today!!

Hug the ones you love..(feel free to even get one to the ones you don't love so much).. It'll be worth it..

****Hello..Anyone see the latest Friends Followers... There are 10 of you.. Probably gobs more but are petrified to begin to follow..fear that I'm really a koo koo nut.. (I'm not ..I promise..Just the momma warden)

..I have love for my blog as it means so much to me.. I remember back when I thought or was told I was NUTS for having a blog.. but I am so thankful for each and everyone of you all that stop by...

I'm out.. Blessings to you!!

Let's Take Some Time

2009-05-12T15:24:00.004-05:00

As I type this I can't help but cry...

Many of you know that Miss Kayleigh Freeman grew her wings and is in heaven now. Her mother Aimee writes that Kayleigh went on to be with Jesus last night..

I am literally speechless with the unability to murmur words but I will catch the tears streaming down my cheeks..

Oh my heart aches with pain, sadness, tears just flow because I can't even begin to imagine what it is like to lose a child. My deepest love and sincerity goes to the Freeman family..

Here is an excerpt of the beautiful words Aimee & Adam wrote on their post...

"Kayleigh, we know our life on earth is just a spec of time compared to the life we have in eternity with you and our Lord. We look forward to the day that we can pick you up and swing you around, dancing, singing and worshipping together. I am sure that your journey to Heaven was greeted with many open arms.

We are so very proud of you for everything you have done in such a short period of time. You've showed us what strength truly is, what determination truly is and what love truly is. There will not be a day that passes that we won't look at your photos and remember how awesome you felt in our arms. Your soft skin that brushes our lips and your tiny little hands that grip our fingers for comfort will always be missed.

We will never get to tuck you in your own bed at night and we will never get to pick you up when you fall. We will never get to hold your hand while you cross the street and I will never get to walk you down the aisle, but please know that your Mommy and I are so blessed that God gifted us with your love, even if it was only for a very short period of time. You will always be in our hearts and we can't wait until we meet again. We love you endlessly and we already miss you so very much! Goodbye Sweetheart...for now."

To each and everyone of you ...love one another..and take a moment and pray for the Freeman family in this time..

Huge Hugs,

Stephanie

Really Has It Been... Take 2

2009-05-08T16:12:00.002-05:00

I know... I know..

I've probably lost have of my lady blog friends...so hopefully I still have at least have left..Which i'm thankful for each one. Each one of them I find humour, tears, sadness, joy and love ...yes each of those eventhough this is mostly through online capabilities...

So yea it's been how many days...I'm thinking like about two weeks..HOLY MACARONI..Long time..

Alot has been going on..(Dare I let you into the craziness? Well if I did, you'd get bored and probably nod off at your desk or comfy seat..

Let's try to speel out a quick version of these last days:

Kat's arm is healing well... continue to wear brace just when leaving house..go back in a couple weeks(Note to self..find dr. card for appt.time) lol

The 28th of April ..it had been a year my M.I.L passed away from pancreatic cancer. I miss her so incredibly much but I also know she wanted to go onto see jesus and she's not hurting so that's comforting to know.

We've ran here and there and everywhere..soccer to baseball..rained out soccer to rained to baseball..

Piddling around the house...(job never down.. do you feel like me and it could be all you ever do).. I know right.. CRAZY

Finishing down the line of final exams for college semester..Lord help me .. I am about burnt out this semester..Ready for our break..

Oh break.. yea my kids are out of school next friday..Oh jesus help us..BUT..wait..June 1 oh yea..summer school..we come..I know Mrs. Stephanie is a mean momma who does mean business when it comes to summer school..(they still have 2 months after that..they'll be fine)

Ope..Junior camp for K..one week away with church..She is excited ..me not so much..Did I mention AWAY for ONE week? Just checking

OH >>>OH>>>..How it slipped my mind..we were supposed to have storms last night..hmmm. Didn't..Praise God..

But as I was trying to mustar up enough energy to get moving this morning, I noticed outside was very dark..Not night time dark.. like oh my getting ready to have storms..sirens take cover...

Mind you ..every since 2003 my hubby and I were out on the highway driving back home and literally experienced a tornado nearly grazing our car. Oh yea..not a fan..

So, the more I listened to the radio this morning, I heard warning after warning..tornadoes spotted in again every direction around us. Hubby drives a truck and was heading NE where they were moving. It seemed to be the worse was after the initial storms.

Let me say here...this is on the list of scary as scary gets..

Being on the phone with someone when you hear sirens, hear the wind..(freight trains), giving you a play by play of how ENORMOUS this tornado is ..right beside..
I was praying and crying and praying more with feeling like my breathe was being compressed...A few of the scariest moments in my 30 years..

He finished working and made it home safely..Around lunch by looking outside, you never would've known we just had storms roll through by looking at the bright sunshine..but shocked with as much damage that has been documented..

So as I end my updated M.I.A post..my new thing I love is fb also known as facebook. There is a Farm Town app which I love..love..

I'm a city girl but I love my farm and my planting of crops....

So if you happen to be on facebook ..come find me..and we'll farm together..

Huge Hugs & happy farming,

Stephanie

Hello...Hello...Ring..Ring..

2009-04-29T15:45:00.001-05:00

Hey ...shouting out to each of you.. All 8....what .....eight.. holy moly..

I am still here... just going through some things..

I promise I'll be back to post...

Huge Hugs,

Stephanie

!!Taking not one but three for the team!!

2009-04-25T15:26:00.007-05:00

UPDATE:
This is my lil k who makes mommy's patience disappear but oh I love her to pieces..She is trying to get better with her ears but I think some wind irritated them today..She had a bath, medincine and cartoonies..she went out like a light..

Original Post----------

Oh ya..It's saturday afternoon..I ......am........tired!! In hopes of surviving today with a second wind..and you peoples KNOW I love my energy drinks..I am quite partial..Without the lord..#1 for sure..for sure..and my can of sugar..I don't believe I wouldn't have survived so well to the end of semester..Oh did I say the end...YEA praise god..a few more weeks..Woo Hoo..Everyone in the vicinity do the happy dance..I can't wait...Okay see here is my new fav. thirst quencher.(my it has alot of sugar).

I knew when I hit the front door this afternoon that I felt I needed to head straight to the fridge. I felt like I was one of many running on the field today but I was really..Just watching the kiddos run front..back..left..right..out..in..Wheew..your eyes and brain are tired..

So we headed out the door....wait.......beep..backin up.. I didn't want to wake up this morning so needless to say mom didn't move until really the clock was screaming at me to hustle and bustle otherwise we were fixin to be in trouble. I scrammed to get everyone together in one piece and dressed and out the door at 8:30 a.m. I know to many that's late..and plenty of time but by saturday my kids are crabby patties so to have everyone with no limbs missing is pretty awesome!! Arriving at the field for pictures..gotta love that..many and many a childrens running amock..I kid you not..literally it was like kiddy land like no other. Pics down..one game..and we're getting ready to have kick off. I had brought the babies some cereal in a ziplock bag and mind you smart mom here ..I didn't bring a container to set them in for lil k to eat out off..so you will only guess what I used...lol..I laugh now because for real.. I probably looked like a nut..I used her lil tenny shoe..lol..I so promise she wasn't wearing it cuz that would've been too gross if I pulled it off and used it and I thought surely it's clean so there..I laid it all out there..lol and for J = one goal..Woo Hoo..Awesome is that!! From last weekend ...Exhibit A..
to this weekend (sorry no pic..but let me say I was one proud momma).

So one game down...it's 10:30 a.m. and they are STARVING!! I guess I should feed them I thought..so we scrambled to McD's.. $1 sandwhiches all around..so that took FOREVER in a DAY..do you know when you order a large quantity of sandwhiches they look at you like you done lost your ooples..Like really they think i'm gonna eat them all..

And so now we've got oh 20 min. and someone left there um....baseball attire at home..FANTASTIC is that..yea so running..running.. to go by the house and search..and search..make me a sandwhich..stuff it in my face..grab a soda..(Cherry Coke) and swoosh back to the field for game #2. Big J (my husband) was meeting us there to see J play since he works odd hours this was his only opp. to catch a game..Usually when dad comes around..j tries to go above and beyond acting all cool and flops..

j+2 more goals= super awesome..
One was made from half way on field and he kicked off and it flew right into the goal!!

Wheew..After soccer..I was pooped, babies were pooped..we didn't stay around baseball..we went home and in the process..babies went out to nappy land..

Yea Me..now I'm fixin to help Big J make chicken cordon bleu..

WooHoo..Praise God..I am thankful..

Huge Hugs,

Stephanie

Who wants to dance?

2009-04-24T15:44:00.002-05:00

I know..You're thinking I've done lost my ooples..contrary to popular belief, I believe my sanity is in check..

You are probably grasping the idea that I love music.. and I seen on my instant messenger there's a launch radio..Hello..Is that awesome or what..I hit and all the old music comes flooding back..Oh I was singing as If I was the only one in the living room here except I wasn't. Nothing like your kids looking at you like you are way to old to be moving and grooving. Another thing, is I love to jam in the car, I'm in the car alot so why not right? When the hustle & bustle is moving nobody can tell but at the intersection people look at you like you're nuts..Promise ..Not nuts here.. :)

So since yesterday's post was extremely long and I bet it gave you the feeling that it was never going to end I'll do my best to end this short and sweet.

Really it's alot about nothing today...

Let's see..lil k,lil j and I went upstairs this morning but ......I had boo koo's of laundry to put away.. Laundry is DEFINITELY not one of my things I get excited about!! So i'm puting away my laundry and sorting it to the remaining rooms.. and I'm like lil J "why don't you got get your dirty laundry and throw it down..the stairs.. I said here even is a basket..so he goes marching in there and scooping up laundry..singing his clean up song...Clean up...clean up...everybody clean up....
Uh k he says.. you help bubba clean up?...................No!! lil k says..lol..Oh I was laughing..to myself..

So that was the highlight of my day..It's all of 85 today......Wheew..Hot..big girls ..like me don't like HOT!!..

So..everyone knows...at least I hope so..Soccer Saturday is tomorrow!! We have soccer pics at 8:40 a.m. a game at 9:40 again at 11:40 and .......drumroll please..baseball at 12:30 p.m. Oh heavens to betsy...Please lord..give us strength..

Huge Hugs,

Stephanie

Really Has It Been... And a REALLY long post

2009-04-23T19:28:00.002-05:00

Really has it been...that long since I posted?

Doesn't seem like it's been 2 days..The wierd feeling I was having was to pause this whole blogging thing..I'm like really ..I like to blog for not only myself but for others, that they might recieve some insight and know they aren't the only crazy,hormonal,wife,or mother whose hair might be changing colors WAY before their ready..

Yea.. I know..Just in the last week or so, I have had grey hairs come up like nothing..For when I seen one or two I was alright but now that they kind of are on top and dance..NOTICEABLY..I can't help but feel a bit saddened..If any of you(which is only a few)have seen me in person, my hair isn't short by any means... it's down to below my hiney, to put it cleanly..lol..So imagine ALOT of grey hairs later down the road.. Heavens.. I hope WAY down the road.

Really has it been...

that long since I had an energy drink?

Oh since yesterday, lol. In the afternoon.. I am quite partial to my Full Throttle's honestly..They are my anytime of the day coffee. My husband works for a soda company(which shall remain nameless) and we get them through there.

Really has it been..

that long since I posted about K's ortho appt. anxiety..and then I don't relay the results.. how nice is that of a blogger huh? Her appt. went alright.. her nurse (remaining nameless as well) cause YOU never know WHO might read YOUR blog. She's a mess..One of those thoughts like.. there are some interesting nurses out there..Surely if she can be a nurse then I should be okay. Anyhow, previous to Dr. Back to the Future coming..(If anyone has seen the movie you'll know exactly what I mean), the nurse looked at her arm as did I and it did look better than when I innitially called her last thursday. The other day when I looked at it,It literally looked like she was in a fun house mirror...but you know I just prayed about it..So we had x-rays and they looked awesome.. Barely could you see the break area..Wheeww..And she still continues to wear her splint for the next week and then only when she leaves home.Also no.. soccer..no softball...HMMM...For the most part it's healing well but will it completely be good in 6 months.

Then ...after I took K to school .. we went on to take lil k to the dr. It all started on Sunday.. and progressed into something with a fever..and quite the crankiness. I took a guess and went with left ear and yep..not one but two.. Yea Yea Yea. Her antibiotic didn't agree with her so she received a new one today..PRAISE GOD..Cause she has been quite the pill..Really..Like pushin my patients button pill.

I just remember this...At the end line so I thought I should put this in. So I'll make it quick..lil k & lil j were being naughty downstairs as I was transporting laundry and so I hollered and told them to start up the stairs and let mom get the clothes and you two can take a bath. So no longer did I grab the laundry and start up the stairs I hear ..splash..splash..anyone guess where they were?..In the bathroom..Playing in what you ask? The TOILET..Yes I know the TOILET..Talk about gross, nasty, ick, really double ick. Then they decide to tell me as lil j is hollering, binky..ok where is it? I kid you not, they both pointed to the toilet. Oh man..this surely can't be possible..Oh yes but it is..So we make peace, dip and scrub and dip and scrub in the tub..On to getting dressed so the two little naughty ninkumpoopies went jumping and playing around and stepped on my curtain in my room..It was brighter in there than ever before..Like a strobe light hit..They done popped the curtain of the wall..Oh I tell you what..It was a good thing it was nap cause they were headed down a road of time outs.

Let's see here, last night was church service..Need I say more.. as it was awesome..God was moving and shaking some hearts up. He's gonna do good things I know..I really need to read "Fireproof" as soon as semester is over. I need to get a list wrote of things I want to accomplish this summer..one would be to start knitting again.. I miss it soooooo much..There just isn't enough time in the day or I'd do it now but if I took even thirty minutes every night I'd be cooking farther along than I am now..lol

Oh..today..which is Thursday's can be crazy and not sure why..just seems fitzy in the mornings. I just prayed about it and gave it to god that he will give me and others going through these situations and more difficult ones strength.

We had soccer practice tonight..and it finally cooled off..me(big girl)+ hot temps.= Gross feeling and it's been hot here for April.

Oh I almost forgot..HELLO..what was I thinking or was I ..following Mckmama's blog A.K.A Stellan's mom..she twitters like do gobs of others..and I love to talk and talk but as I hold stuff in to put on my blog post I forget something funny or just plain crazy so I thought what better way but to tweet..I know sometimes I do have good ideas..so glance over to your right.. yea right up top and read along if you wish..

Continuing for Stellan and Kayleigh..Both still very sick.. Sending prayers and love..

Really has it been...

3 hours since I first started this post but I had to take mini breaks in between..

Huge Hugs,

Stephanie

Praying ... for kayleigh... Praying for Stellan

2009-04-21T23:57:00.003-05:00

Little Miss Kayleigh recently had surgery and is recovering..unfortunately she isn't recovering like everyone hoped. In fact, her cerebral cortex isn't working and the physicians believe she actually might be brain dead...

But our god has a plan.. a plan of grace, strength and mercy. Please won't you pray for baby kayleigh at this time. Her parents really need some love and strength. This beautiful little girl was born only weighing just a hair over 1 pound. She has defied the odds more than not and she's so precious. People all over the world have followed Aimee's blog, whether by accident or purpose, AND their life will give you hope, strength, love, grace and feel so loved by our wonderful god.

Please go by and see updates on kayleigh's blog.

http://kayleighannefreeman.blogspot.com/

Also praying for Baby Stellan... He's in Boston and he had surgery this morning..He is recovering..Again ... Many people LITERALLY around the world praying for him today and every day. He is another precious child of god's. His mother MckMama will bless you with her strength, faith and love for her god, the physicians, and her family.

His blog is on the right..

Sending Huge Hugs,

Stephanie

Oh it's early...

2009-04-21T04:43:00.002-05:00

Good Morning...

I really didn't have a post title pop in my head...This one just kinda stuck...so we'll go with it..

Here's a few off the top of my head...

* Oh it's early ..... to be eating cereal right now.frosted strawberry cereal.

* Oh it's early...way to early to be hearing the washer going..but figure if i'm up I mise well be getting something accomplished..

*Oh it's early .. to be thinking about how the day is going to pan out..(for real..it's not my planning..it's gods timing)

*Oh it's early ..to be having unfolded laundry staring at me from the couch (if I even had eyes in the back of my head..they be having a staring contest together)

*Oh it's early..to be posting..really does anyone still stop by here anyhow..?..Who knows..

For waking up at 2:45 a.m. this morning with my hubby to accompany him while getting ready for work...I fell back asleep on the couch..Does that like totally defeat the purpose..Probably.. Well at least I'm there just ..dreaming on the couch..

For some reason I have been more tired ..as you get older the hardest it becomes for us to stay up later..Odd.. as in I'm really not old..Maybe it's a hormonal thing..Maybe it's the fact that I can look into the mirror and see my hair has grown so quickly that it's below my hiney.. but up top in the front..I am meeting some new grey "friends". Ridiculous I say....Also I can't have caffeine like I used to.. Drinking it at night..is becoming a NO NO...A jittery NO NO..

I am just rattling on and no I know..

Let's see here.. I last posted back on friday..

What's happened since then..

Saturday..we had Soccer..J didn't feel so hot..so in turn he didn't move so hot..Later on that day.. we had Baseball..that went well...we have alot of eager kids ready to play ball...and then there's a few..who are absolutely gonna drive you batty because they don't listen..and the parent just stuck them in sports to have some peace and quiet..Yea it's true..I've heard it..

Sunday was Church. Awesome day..

In the midst of these last few days..K had gotten better with her cold..J had worn himself out..and he had what started as cold symptoms and moved to vomiting..I know it's lovely.. Fevers up and down..whining.. oh the whining..and there's nothing you can really do but pray that they receive some rest. Next in line is lil k who started in Sunday night service.. sneezing, bugers flying..I'm thinking oh.. next...here we go..lol..Yep a fever stamped on it..

Yesterday..The two big kids made it to school..lil K went from yucky feeling and she slept majority of yesterday..we went to ball.. and she was not very happy..And come bedtime............She didn't want to lay still to fall asleep..She was like a magic jumping bean..Up and down..Here and there..Finally with her fussyness and fever she fell asleep ...*praise god*

It is 5:15 a.m... oh holy goodness..I can hear faintly the couch hollering at me..I'm gonna go rest some eyes..

K has a ortho appt..please pray for peace and wisdom..I had a conversation with the dr. nurse the other day.. I'll post later that tid bit.. so we're off to town VERY early..and so I'm off here..

Huge Hugs,

Stephanie

TGIF...For Real It's Really Friday?

2009-04-17T00:10:00.003-05:00

Oh boy...Are you sure it's friday ..hmmm..By a few minutes after.. indeed it's friday..I am pooped with sincere tiredness..as this has seem to be a long, never ending week. I know for sure I will be doing a happy dance like no other here in about 3 weeks when spring semester for college is over. I am totally ready to kick these late nights to the curb. I can't wait to go to sleep at 9 p.m. instead of midnight and then awaking not too long after for school work again. Oh well, really what can you do? It is true that one day it'll all be worth it. To be a nurse, helping to save lives, bring lives into this world... HELLO.. if that ain't awesome.. then i'm not sure is...If college was easy, everyone would do it.. including my hubby but some can't handle the crazyness as it's not for the weak..

So I know.. I totally blew thursday's post right out the windy, window..Yesterday morning which really feels like this morning. because I still think it's thursday but really it's friday.. see I almost typed saturday.. oh man should I go to bed.

So, we get up this morning to learn my car was having issues so I got into town late for my daily run (not run with my leggies) my errands..lol..

Then lil K and lil J decided they didn't want to sit by each other this morning.. unlike the fact they had been doing it o..since lil ky was born almost 19 months ago..They were like dinosaurs in a cage match. Clawing and pinching, holding the others car seat just to make the other mad. Honestly, it was a bit much to intake at 10 a.m. so we couldn't get back home quick enough or they'd been separated that was for sure..

The rest of the day .. was much about nothing.. You know fun stuff ladies do .. kitchen, laundry, pick up toys, feed, nap for kiddos, soda, pee, laundry, vacuum, soda, pee.. The cycle doesn't end from 8 a.m. until 8 a.m.

Oh I have checked off a to do ee on my list back from spring break..lol..Anyone remember I had made a comment about the hall closet.. something will fall out and bite ya.. Well fear no more.. All clean..Also, may have mentioned under my bed.. King size bed no less. . Oh ladies there was some dust that could've made you slip and fall.. It was insane..It was like christmas all over again, as tiny toys were shoved under there many moons ago and actually found.Another checkie off the list, my car.. Woo Hoo.. Not wanting to toot my own horn here.. well yea really I am.. That I progressed and actually got stuff done..

You know you're tired when you close your eyes momentarily while typing a post...

Please remember these babies I mentioned on wednesday.. Kayleigh is recovering.. she needs prayers..

Baby Stellan was flown to Boston today.. and doing well..

PRAISE GOD!! He is so good..so faithful..so awesome with HIS plan!!

Huge Hugs,

Pitter Pat Wednesday

2009-04-15T03:58:00.007-05:00

Update..........

I had wrote at the end of my post this morning about a few children..
Baby Stellan in which his badge is over on the right..is very sick.. with his tiny, precious heart..His mom was under the impression that they would be monitored but going home...It turns out they are actually flying to Boston..for an procedure..Prayers are so needed for this family...

*****************ORIGINAL POST**************
Goooooooooooood Morning Ladies.....in the House.....

It's hump day...and whee www.. I feel it..

This will be beautiful, short and sweet as I'm feeling this minute (really tired so I better type fast before I type something while my eyes get droopy and I end up typing something goofy) oh yea.. it's happened..I'd go back and read it.. and swear I fell asleep, and dreamt it for a short second...Crazy Stuff ...

So few know that I am a full time college student...and few know..I chose to take this semester from home..Insane I know...One of those what was I thinking moments...

Due to these circumstances, I am tired...and honestly becoming hormonal crazy lady in her 30's. While I'm plugging along I have my partner in crime...

Exhibit A

I know, these are few of her better pics...She seems to be how glue is to wood..Stuck..better yet.. a zipper.. I'm one side and she's the other...

Exhibit B

And all funniness aside...Our moment of truth........
Exhibit C

Kids...They are precious..Even though they are related to my sprouting grey hairs...hm mm...

I wanted to make note of a few of the children that have touched my heart and need huge prayers especially for this week...

Baby Bentley..awaiting heart surgery Bentley badge

Baby Jonah...They are back in the hospital..on right side Williams blog

Baby Stellan... they are in 4 weeks of in the hospital...his badge is on right..

Cute children Gavin & Chelsea... Gavin is awaiting procedures this week.. mother requests prayer for Chelsea..as she is struggling with mom being gone..Praying for them.. They are on the blog list.. Masto Chronicles..

Baby Kayleigh... Awaiting surgery this week....On list too...

Each of these mom's and dad's need strength, love, continuously..I can't begin to imagine..How their faith is tested..and they stride with god's word..So awesome..

Praying for April Rose.. her badge is attached on right..She is pregnant with a precious child..and her dr.s aren't giving the mother much hope to go on.. But her strength, faith is quite amazing..Click her badge for her story and send her a few words of faith...

And ladies..These women are waiting ...waiting for the precious timing of carrying a child..I think of them all too often..and really hope there desired is full filled.

Heather with her blog.. A mom, child and a pug.. She is currently on chemo for reoccurring cancer. She has two small children.. Oh I pray for her constantly and for these precious children..

There really is a significant amount of individuals going through trials & times but amazing they continue to strive with the ultimate peace from our Jesus...Breath taking I know..

Sending Huge Hugs & requesting them to be forwarded on to others,

Calling all ..........patience....

2009-04-14T10:40:00.002-05:00

Yea...Good Morning.. to each of you......(you know who you are)lol.. Happy Tuesday..

I added new tunes...I hope you enjoy..and my widget to the right...I HOPE YOU DANCE!!That is one thing that gets me going is music & moving!!

You know I have been posting in the evening..you know cause life is so hustle and bustle ..but then by that time people have snuggled into there jammies so.. they might not get to cackle at MY CRAZY LIFE!!

So, I'm gonna mix it up a bit and post this morning..WHY you ask .. because eventhough my clocks LITERALLY says 10:44 a.m. really it feels like WAY later in the day...Oh WHY you ask...???Cause 3 out of 4 kiddos decided that 5:30 a.m. was a FANTASTIC time to rise in shine..BUT there wasn't a ounce of SHINE...lol..

Lil K & Lil J are feeling their oat boats to the highest extent...I am beginning to think that whoever came up with the thought of "Terrible 2's" didn't realize what was ahead at 3's. Wheew... So therefore I courageously titled this post..Calling all ..patience...I am praying and asking for god to really help with me with patience, and to be calm even when my kiddos are acting crazy,being loud, fighting,wrestling, throwing food at each other...Patience..Patience..

Really it's not horrible, I just ask for strength to a funner mom & not seem like a HELGA all the times..(yea my oldest says that)lol..or the "Warden"

I love my children...I am also willing to bet.. that I'm not the only mom whose patience seem to decrease with age..(along with memory)..

So..if any other crazyness.. comes into this day..believe you me.. I will touch base..

Huge Hugs,

Too Funny........

2009-04-13T21:00:00.002-05:00

Okay...So what started out as me finding a song to upload turned into finding a comedy bit..Chonda Pierce..I had heard her name but I watched this and CRACKED UP ..hilarious.. HIT>>>> PAUSY ON MRS. STEPH'S PLAYLIST

Enjoy...

Marathon Monday

2009-04-13T19:47:00.005-05:00

Evening to all 6 who follow my blog..(and a few lurkers here and there).. I hope your monday ended all as well..

I know by that title post today, you're thinking **Marathon** as in running...uh no..However, I feel physically like I have.. I am tired, physically as if I had been running.. It must go with the territory when it comes to chasing a 2 year old and a one year old. Them together get into disasters,spills,crying fest and little heated matches.. but only these two in the house can sit by each other side by side in church and have their arm around the other.. PRICELESS>..

So ....TODAY was the day of RECKENING...the ORTHO APPT...

Dun...........

Dun.......

Dun............

Along my surprise the dr. decided NOT to recast...miss k's arm... surprised...I am...
I took a peek at x-rays and PERSONALLY (this is my opinion) I don't think it looked really better than the first pics back 2.5 weeks ago..Hmmm.. I'm guessing he knows what he's doing.. Since he has the PhD.. and I'm just know going back to school..

I just really hope it heals well.. Dr. thinks maybe seeing her at our next visit in a week n a half.. he will decide if soccer is a option..I mainly just want her arm to heal..CORRECTLY..

So she is back in her splint..

In a nutshell.. that was the extent of my day..between the regular mom stuff..it was enough to tire me out..

So I leave you with a cute, cute pic of lil k & I from last night before bed.. All of a sudden I am Mrs. Photogenic..(just not of myself)

Wishing you a restful evening & Huge Hugs,

Easter.. It was a good day!!

2009-04-12T18:53:00.012-05:00

Update....!!!!!

LOL...After looking at my pictures... I noticed in the basket pic.. there's a bag of sugar...lol.. THAT DID NOT COME FROM THE EASTER BUNNY..As if they won't receive gobs..of candy alone plus at church they are having a candy rain..Candy will be coming out of the wood work.. Mr.Dentist is gonna LOVE< LOVE> us..Just thought I'd throw that part in there...

Good Evening to each of you... My it's seems to have been a long day......

The boys were up at.... 4 a.m. ready to scope out their baskets...and I don't believe they even fell back asleep.. but at 6:30 a.m. they shuffled downstairs and went crazy over their baskets..due to weather here this morning..(Pouring Rain)Mr. Easter Bunny thought it would be best to just bag up the eggs for hiding...(which because of church we put off our egg hunt).. Here is the kiddos baskets...

We went off to church..

and it was great... our children sang in the kids choir and they were to cute...you don't realize just how big they are getting until you see them on there own being little people..

Due to monsoon of a rain storm.. again we put off the egg hunt...had lunch and ........at 4:00 p.m. we let the fun begin...

And we're off....

Searching.......

Looking high and low........

Still looking...mind you while mom & dad are freezing...

Finishing up.......Wheeww....

After so many candy wrappers and messes..mom gave up on trying to pick up the house...
We sat down to pray and eat plenty....

After a long but very enjoying and thankful day... I'm tired... and just to say those words don't do it enough justice...

I hope each of you had a blessed Easter..

Sending huge hugs with lots of praise that bedtime is almost here,

Sunny Saturday

2009-04-11T09:18:00.002-05:00

Gorgeous...Gorgeous Sun out this morning...

Soccer rocked this morning.. Seems to be game time at 8:00 a.m. is awesome for our kiddos... our team the Sonics... Won... 9 to 0.

Of course, Mrs. Stephanie's camera was battery less... BUT wait.. wait...

We got 2 goals...lol..of course when mom doesn't have click, clicks of the camera to back it up..

Awesome, Awesome Saturday...Enjoy this day that the lord hath made..I will rejoice and be glad in him...

Sunday's coming....

Huge Hugs,

Gotta Love Pictures...

2009-04-11T00:56:00.005-05:00

Today is none other than Soccer Saturday...Stay tuned for Soccer Pics.. Until here are a few from this week...

Enjoy!!

I know what you're thinkin.. no she's not squatting for that..

Up close & personal with a dandelion..trying out my flower pics..

Joshua

Miss Ky A.K.A. Miss Naughty.. as she's been this whole blessed week..

Huge Hugs,

Good Friday

2009-04-10T23:29:00.004-05:00

Now that this week has about come to an end....through all the crazyness... through all the tears..(let me say there's been quite a bit), through each and every emotion I faced this week.. I'm really am thankful for today...

Today was the day our heavenly father was beaten, nailed and bound to the cross...the sacrifice he gave for each and everyone of us. On sunday, sweet Easter Sunday it WILL be an awesome day. The day he arose from the dead... I'm so thankful I know who jesus is.. I'm so thankful he's my rock, my shield, my counselor .. the list could go on forever.. No matter what is going on in your life.. you might feel like you are the only one at times and unsure of things...our god is so awesome that he is here day or night.. he hears our cries, sees our tears.. I have found so much strength in reading my bible and praying that I feel so blessed to be a child of his.

This song... is an all time favorite... of mine.. love it.. love it..
Pause Mrs. Stephanie's Playlist on bottom and listen away...

Huge Hugs with lots of Love,

Time

2009-04-08T03:27:00.009-05:00

Time is just that ...time.. It's the seconds, minutes and hours that pass during our life. Time can go quickly- so fast that you can't grab it and hold it before it runs away from you. Time can also creep by so slowly- so slowly it doesn't ever feel like the seconds, the minutes will keep moving at a steady pace. The minutes turn into very long moments....moments in time...

The pain that has been felt this week... is so hard .. it can't even be put into words. It's indescribable...A different kind of hurt.. a hurt that even I don't understand..

Here I was driving the other night to church on monday for our monthly prayer meeting... I couldn't even grasp life...I'd been so good to hold in the pain.. the radio began to play a song.. the beginning tone of the song was playing and honestly I thought this song I'm not too sure about..the rhythm anyway.. THEN.. just THEN the words began to pour out...

My world is closing in
On the inside
But I’m not showing it
When all I am is crying out
I hold it in and fake a smile
Still I’m broken
I’m broken
Only one can understand
And only one can hold the hand
Of the broken
Of the broken

When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I’ve been
You run to me with outstretched hands
And You hold me in your arms
Again

I was like this is it .. the pain in my heart.. my confusion in my mind..I couldn't even align time with my thoughts.. I just wanted time to stop.. to stand still so I could even grasp everything going on.. that I could somehow fix this when in fact it was out of my hands.. it was in gods hands..The song just didn't play once.. it was again for a reason.. a reason for purpose I needed to really hear the words..

I need no explanation of why me
I just need confirmation
Only You could understand the
emptiness inside my head
I am falling
I am falling
I’m falling down upon my knees
To find the one who gives me peace
I am flying
Lord I am flying

As I sat in church trying to hold my composure.. It was just like a tear started to happen and it was a release like I couldn't explain. I couldn't breathe, I couldn't hold it in any longer.. if I just would've caught each tear as it fell, I could've danced in the puddle. The emotions I felt as TIME was passing.. TIME was still moving, moving without my heart in the place it needed to be. All I could see was darkness with someone standing at the podium talking.. He would go on to say.. God has a plan.. a plan for each of us.. Our time isn't always his plan... Honestly, I was beginning to think I was on a different time zone as gods. How I felt like his plan just wasn't for me after all..

Thoughts would begin to flood my mind, the adversary would begin to poke at me.. and try to get in my heart... leaving me with doubt. Doubt that really do I belong in church.. Was it just by an accident he chose me to be a child of his last June? Was I really worth all this mess.. Would he still open his arms and hold me.. Cause I'm telling you.. If I didn't have someone to hold open there arms.. I would've slid onto the floor... I just could close my eyes and hear the music playing and listen to the words of the song replaying in my head that I had just heard in the car on the drive up here.. the drive that seemed to be one of the longest drives to church.. what only took 30 minutes seemed to take hours...

When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I’ve been
You run to me with outstretched hands
And You hold me in Your arms
Again

I have come to you in search of faith
Cause I can’t see beyond this place
Oh You are God and I am man
So I’ll leave it in Your hands

This was it.. I went to the alter and prayed .. prayed and just released all my hurt, all my confusion, all the pain.. time was letting me just stand there with my arms high and just take in the peace that god was giving me.. the weeping I couldn't keep in any longer, the tears I couldn't catch any longer.. but I felt it .. I felt. the love, the guidance, the peace he was giving me.. It was almost like he was saying "It's gonna be okay.. thought you don't understand.. I'm here for you.. I will never leave you nor forsake you..so stand up.. dust off your knees and pull yourself together.. Okay I can do this... I layed it all out there.. and the peace I felt.. the strength I received led me to see it's in his hands now.. His TIME of his plan is not my TIMING..I have to trust in him whether I might have secondary thoughts..You can't. You ABSOLUTELY can not let the adversary poke at you and leave you with any doubt. If you let him in with a a crack of a gap, he will try to slide in with heartless content...................

Before now I couldn't put into words my thoughts.. all I could do was listen to "All that I can say"

Lord I'm tired
So tired from walking
And Lord I'm so alone
And Lord the dark
Is creeping in
Creeping up
To swallow me
I think I'll stop
Rest here a while

And didn't You see me cry'n?
And didn't You hear me call Your name?
Wasn't it You I gave my heart to?
I wish You'd remember
Where you sat it down
Chorus:
And this is all that I can say right now
And this is all that I can give

Bridge:
I didn't notice You were standing here
I didn't know that
That was You holding me
I didn't notice You were cry'n too
I didn't know that
That was You washing my feet

I pulled up this song on my playlist and just listened to it over.. and over... I had no words.. no clicking of the keys to post an entry.. I was speechless.. I just wanted the music to do the talking for me..

After praying and believing.. that's it..

I believe it's not in my hands anymore.... he will hold me and keep me close but it's up to me to breathe, know the truth and that in his time will things work out according to his plan not MINE.

I apologize for this not being upbeat as it usually is.. here but really I am just a human trying to figure out life.. This is my life as it reads the good, the bad and all the in between..

Huge Hugs to each of you,

Long Day!!

2009-04-06T22:53:00.002-05:00

Oh it's been a super long day...

I can surely say my head is pulsating..

My eyes feel like their about to pop out..

Popping out of my eyelids that are so droopy yet puffy from endless tearing today...

Did I say it's been a long day...

So long of a day .. I'm tired and quickly, momentarily closing eyelids for a second.

My feelings have went from anger, to hurt, next sad now just confused..

Mrs. Stephanie is getting ancy from drinking soda so late..

So Cheers,

Saturday by Pictures

2009-04-04T22:07:00.011-05:00

This is lil K when I caught her standing in my chair at the computer.

This is after she got in trouble!

K my little sassy pre teen turned miss know it all!

J heading toward the goal.. Soccer season kicked off today!!

Mr. Unhappy for having to sit out to rest third quarter

This last one is hilarious .. this would be a pic of how sleepy I was.. Note bottom of picture.. oh yea.. and we went in public like this..

Huge Hugs,

Beautiful Song

2009-04-03T13:00:00.000-05:00

It will be one year on April 28th that my DH mother passed away from pancreatic cancer. She was diagnosed and within weeks she made the decision to go on with jesus. I truely miss her with all my heart. Each of us have our own way of grieving when a loved one has passed. I find alot of peace,love and strength in our god and i'm so thankful he's my rock. Please pause the playlist and take a few minutes to listen. Whether you've lost a mom, grandmom, daughter or a loved one this song will touch your heart. It all makes sense and a sense of peace fills your heart.

Wishing you a great weekend and sending Huge Hugs,

Lil K enjoying a snack

2009-04-02T20:44:00.000-05:00

Oh boy is this week over yet???

2009-04-02T17:42:00.000-05:00

I tell you what.. this week has been especially exausting. Having K and J back in school, trying to get back into our "routine" has been interesting. K alone with her arm has been something so... let's just rewind a second back to yesterday if I could.

K has been continuously saying that her arm has been hurting more since it's been put in a cast. She had a bit of strong medicine left but the ortho. nurse had said if she ran out just to let her know. So, I had called yesterday afternoon to let her i.e. the nurse, know the pain and discomfort she has been experiencing. Anyhow, to speed this up she spoke with the doctor and he refilled her medicine but also needed me to bring her up there. She might be having some swelling going on and that's why she is in pain. I'm thinking ..Do what.. I'm like for real...cause we don't just live a hop,skip and a jump away. With bells on .. I said okay let me go get her and we'll be there shortly. The nurse sat her down and took the chainsaw sounding/rotary cutter and cut slits down long ways on top and bottom. Wrapped it in a bandage and swooshie we were out the door. By having that done, it relieved her throbbing pain...SO PRAISE GOD .. I'm glad we did go. Hopefully now her arm will continue to have a full recovery and we (crossing fingers)won't have anything else happen..

So.. moving forward a few hours.. to last night..I am trying to get the klan ready for church. Showering kids, feeding and eating.. I felt like a crazed maniac running around the house and honestly.. I just wanted to forget the whole mess.. I had a crabby husband, crabby children and personally I just wanted to hide in a closet somewhere. Got everyone ready, me last of course.. literally running out the door without my hair fixed.. I kid you not.. now I can laugh about it .. why well because I left all my emotions back at the alter. Getting to church with one minute to spare. Oh praise god..Alright so i'm clapping and trying to praise our god but really I just wanted to cry and collapse. Emotionally, spirtually and mentally I was at a point of overwhelment. I was so thankful with my pastor said something spoke in his heart and said "I feel the presence of our god here and I know there are some individuals hear that need to come forward and seek him". Hello.. ME ME..I went up and proceded to pray .. and pray.. and pray.. seeking our god for anything really. I gave him all my thoughts, all my heart and soul. I basically said.. I just don't know if I have it in me to deal with everything the best of my ability. Seriously, anyone knows it can be challenging to be a mom, a student in college, taxi driver, cook, cleaner and a wife of which the only who attends church besides my kids. I just had uncertainty about my husband joining me in church. There is nothing I want more than to be there as husband and wife worshipping our fantastic god.

It was one of the few times I just let it all out and I cried for god's love to wrap around me. I tell you what, when I was done praying.. I really felt at peace. I was then so happy I decided to push through and go to church. I didn't let our advisary win. The advisary was trying to pick at me and get me down. Oh he was trying to well but I am thankful we have a god that will scoop us back up and hold us close.

MOVING ON TO TODAY..

Oh this morning.. Oh I have a story.. DH and I took lil k and lil j and we went to a local restaurant. We were greeted by a women who said 4, highchair and booster? Yes please I answered. Okay booth or table she asked? Booth is fine. Okay so we're toodling back and she sits everything down and I procede to sit lil k in the highchair and NO KIDDING I literally turn around to the sink where they do dishes. We are in the CORNER.. I seemed to have noticed .. Now mind you, there wasn't a door in front of the washing area.. I was like NO WAY JOSE.. I was mad.. Okay so I move everyone to a table and after sitting my steam began to come out my ears. Why were we stuck (put) back in the kitchen/dining area. I went to find that lady and I ask "Where is the manager I need to speak with them"? That's me she said.. OH FANTASTIC ... Are you kidding me. So I say my speal about about how discriminating it was to be put in the corner because we had a child sitting in a high chair. I said we have eaten at this establishment many times and frankly, we sat plumb in the middle of the restaurant with TWO highchairs at one time. I told her it was rude, and we were leaving. She tried to kill me with kindness but I just got louder because out of the whole restaurant their was only 6 or 7 tables taken so I felt those people needed to hear how ridiculous this lady was. Needless to say, we were out the door and at Lamberts. Home of the thrown rolls.. and believe or not they seated us right with our high chair sticking in the isle and it was great.

Wheew.. Long post huh..the day has creeped by.. I'm so ready for the kids to scadaddle to nighty nighty. They are feeling their oats. Silence is awesome .. the best thing ever at the end of the day..

Huge Hugs,

Of few Words Wednesday Part 3

2009-04-01T02:01:00.000-05:00

Huge Hugs,

Odds n Ends & A Few Friends

2009-03-31T02:01:00.000-05:00

Let me start off by saying I'm super sleepy tonight. I ended up staying up way too late last night talking with Mrs S. You get us two talking and typing and we could go for hours, i'm telling ya. My DH gets up at 230 in the mornings for work so from when I close my eyes, prayed and he got up it was just about 1 hour ..give or take.. I felt okay.. I couldn't go back to sleep after he had left so I picked up the house.. Now what crazy girl cleans their house at 4 am? Add the dishes, laundry and took laundry upstairs...

And boy.. I got real tired at about 6 am so I crashed on the couch for one wee little hour. I woke up not very cheery and tired.. I went to run my errand into town and realized while I was on the phone mind you.. my battery was going dead. Here I am on the phone with Mrs S and kaput... I go to plug it in and my charger has a wirer that broke away.. Here I trying to drive and trying to get my phone to hold just an ounce of charge to send her a message that I didn't purposely disconnect or heaven for bid drive into some corner. It was a mess this morning. I was tired and fussy.. with my two smaller kiddos they were fed lunch and off to nappy because I knew if I didn't boy was it going to be a long day ahead.Wheewwww..

Miss K got her cast signed all up today.. Her arm has been hurting her more in the evening.. not sure if it's swelling some or what..I hope and pray it will continue to heal and relieve some pressure and pain each day. Her nurse at the Ortho dr. said when we come back she'll pull out the stuffing after they cut if off and she could save it... Interesting I thought.. Keepsake momento..Welp, this is my speal on how my day went and here's a bit about a few friends.

Friends.. their are very few in our life.. that really get us as a person.. we don't always choose our friends but they come in and out of our lives for reasons we might not understand.

We all have friends.. friends but then you have that one where you can laugh together, cry together, make sense out of life together, just is all right together.

Last Saturday Miss K and I had the opportunity to go visit a good ole friend of hers and her mother (an ole friend of mine). It was really nice scratch that.. it was great..

The way over to the house.. I think K and I were both a bit nervous.. It's been a few years since we had last spoken and that time it was rocky.. but there comes a point in time when you have to let it go.. Life is too short to hold it until you pop..

The first few minutes were quiet between the girls but after awhile they were chatting katties, and giggling, remenescing the older stories of when they attended classes together. Memories, it was great to remember and also catch up on everything that has been going on back then until now.. Kids grow so fast.. but in the same breath we're still the same girls.. same women.. same friends.. It was like we never skipped a beat between her and I. We laughed, cackled and told stories after story.

As I was pulling out of the drive to leave K says "So how do you think it went" I said it went good. I asked did you have a good time.. oh yea she says. It made her spring break end on a happy note so that's is alright with me. I hope we keep in touch.. as everyone has a mainline of friends.. there is a few really fantastic ones that you know you gotta hold onto.

I am thankful for our god, my very closest friend who hears my every thought.

I am thankful for my husband and my many children.

I am thankful for the ability to attend school at home for now.

I am thankful for the ability to breathe, talk, eat, dress, run.

I am thankful my daughter wrist isn't worse than it really is.
Here's a few of many I could go on about..

Please count your blessings and not your misfortunes..

Drop a line and tell me what YOU are thankful for?

Hug the ones you love tonight and sending Huge Hugs to you,

!!Lost but not Unthankful!!

2009-03-30T20:27:00.001-05:00

Have you ever stood still and felt "lost"? Do you feel like you are a person with repetition that you do things over and over again and yet you feel that in the same breathe you aren't making any progress? With the hustle & bustle of time changing you sit back and watch life pass before your eyes but you feel so lost with your inner-self that you can't move. You might feel constricted to do so.. well my heart aches inside because this is me. These are my thoughts..and these are my feelings .. at certain times.. I just want to slide down the side of a wall and cry.. Not sure why.. This is just me..

These last few weeks I've felt this way.. I couldn't really put my finger on it and I haven't really yet.. I've come to see that I know I feel lost. The other night I was reading a blog and I found my first song on here "Lost" which probably just ended.. I think that song is interesting to listen to..

I think more accurately I found to make sense was #2 song "Life Ain't Always Beautiful".
Life aint always beautiful
Sometimes it's just plain hard
Life can knock you down, it can break your heart

Life aint always beautiful
You think you're on your way
And it's just a dead end road at the end of the day

But the struggles make you stronger
And the changes make you wise
And happiness has its own way of takin it's sweet time

I needed to type my thoughts out..hey I said this is the good.. the bad and everything in between..

I know before everybody jumps to say to me be thankful.. Oh I am ABSOLUTELY thankful don't get me wrong here.. I'm just feeling lost in the same breath here.

.......
Enough already huh..Alright here we go.. one sec. here..I want to pause and show you something I found this on another blog. so get a drink and take 9 minutes and you will be in ah... I kid you not...

Amazing isn't it? Fantastic....

okay so today was day 1 one of back to school week.. PRAISE GOD .. I'm telling you I wanted to hit play on #4 on my playlist.. and dance like nobodys business.. I love my kids but wheeww.. it has been a long week..it seemed like it never was gonna end.. I'll have to say the end of spring break ended up alot different than I expected.. Who would've ever thought I'd have a child with a broken wrist.. WHO NOT ME>> never would've predicted this.. in the least.. God has a devine plan.. we might think we have life figured out.. but it is at that point that it alters the direction..

Onto the subject of Miss K and her wrist, we had the ortho appointment this afternoon and ........... come on give me a drum roll please....

Ta Da... Miss K in her darling pretty pink cast.. Yep, isn't it bright.. I was going for a blue.. as I am partial to the color blue or grey and her dad was shooting for the camo color.. but pink we chose..

The ortho dr. came in and greeted us with hellos and smiles.. he then went out and took a peek at her x-rays and almost immediately came back and said those fateful few words "Yep, we looking at puting a cast on".. my heart sank..I was hoping by some means maybe she would just be alright in her splint but I guess that is why he's the dr. and not me.lol.. go figure.. We go back in two weeks and they will take that cast off and take new pics. and prob. he said they'll put a new cast on for a bit longer. I was thinking.. god is good.. it is quite possible he could touch her arm and heal it with his mighty power.. When the time is right she will be healed and recover.. Along with having her cast on.. it came to be that she won't be able to be in soccer this season after all. She had started a week prior to spring break but the dr. said nope.. no sports.. no nadda...so .. following dr. rules..that might also rule out softball..we'll have to see how everything goes.

Here's another pic. of my babygirl..
and I'll definitely have one tomorrow with it signed all over..She was adament about getting a sharpy marker for people to sign.. I reminded her no inappropriateness on her cast.

For the most part this was my monday.. errands, cleaning and Miss K's appt. I didn't get to far on my to do list.. my room and the hallway closet looks so scary it could scare the bejeebies out of you.. I have done like a clean through and picked up so all long as I don't open any closets or look under any beds, it's all good..

With spring break being over.. that includes myself I have bunches and bunches of homework staring right at me .. one thing at a time.. right.. only do what you can today and the rest gets moved onto tomorrow..

I encourage everyone to take a minute and hold their loved ones and kids tonight.. Tell them you love them and give a special squishy hug.. They will be over joyed and feel all warm inside..

Sending all of you Huge Hugs,

Say it isn't so Saturday..

2009-03-28T04:21:00.000-05:00

Well... another one of those posts.. lose for words I'm guessing.. The week has come to an end.. We, I mean I survived .. lol.. really here that it's come down to the end it was so bad after all.. they kinda mellowed out as the week progressed and now I think they're just tired..not so much bored anymore..I really enjoyed taking the break from school and just spending time with my big kids.. My babies get alot more attention from mom during the day.. but life has just been busy with me in school that time gets away and before you know it the day after day is done surpassed. I really am thankful for all my kids, I know they can push my buttons and try my patients but geez, they are still my kids.

This week we kicked off youth week at our church.. It has been great..We've have services most of the nights this week with continuing until sunday evening.. I'm really taken in some new things in my mind, in my heart. Unlike someone that has been always a child of god, I have just been baptized now.. it'll be a year in June on Father's Day to be exact. Anyhow, like I was going on, my faith has been something I always struggled with and along with that just my strength and be able to go and give everything I have to our god is hard for me at times. I know he has a plan for us.. I just got to tune in to listen when he let's me know of mine. This is also something that here in these last few weeks I've been battling. Like I had first said in my last post that I have just had this unsure quiet feeling for some reason. Like I feel lost at time because I haven't figured out my place here in this world. I know I'm a wife, a mom, a child of god but there is something else.. something that god is going to use me for.. If and when I point my finger on it, I'll be sure to update.

So .. I know I had headlined this "Say it isn't so because..." thursday night our church held a skating outing up in springfield and my kids and I all went and had fun. My two older K & J looked so big and they are growing up so fast. Lil J put on his first pair of skates and he was so cute.. he just toodled right around in circles. Lil K just made laps with a cookie in one hand and her binky in the other. And then in one blink of an eye Yep that's right, she was skating along and her feet went out from under her.. and you guessed it she was hurt. We had iced it for a bit and requested prayer for her wrist. K continued to cry and say the pain was too much so I decided we should have it looked at. Three hours later... DRUM ROLL PLEASE..... broken wrist... If you could've been a fly on that wall.. I almost fell outta my chair when the dr. uttered those few words.. He went on to say she broke her Distal radius and that it wouldn't be best to cast it until the swelling goes down. After just a few hours of sleep (that includes momma) and some pain med. She could sit for a few minutes with peace. Last night we had went to service at church and everyone had prayed for her and she could rest for awhile on the seat but she still felt compelled to stand during praise singing. God is so good and is he good part of the time? Absolutely not.. he's good ALL the time and I am so thankful that her brake isn't worse than it is. Giving glory to him in the good AND the bad is so important. Now we wait for monday when we go to see the ortho doctor and he'll decide to hard cast it or leave it in the splint for the remainder healing process.

I couldn't end without adding my boys decked out in there skates.. now could I..

They are calling for rain continuing on this morning and switching into snow.. Snow in March... Only in Missouri do we have unpredictable weather.

Everyone knows Mrs. Stephanie LOVES music.. so why not add a video to make everyone get up and do a couple twirls.. With trying to find my place here.. I thought this video was well felt for today! **Don't forget to pause playlist at very bottom**

Huge Hugs with lots of love,

Thoughts for Thursday

2009-03-26T13:23:00.000-05:00

**I warn you.. lengthy post today..**

These are a few of my random thoughts today.. I didn't really feel compelled to just talk about one thing so I thought hmmm. why not just chitter chat about a few things...

I'm not sure where to go from here..These last few days or week I'm guessing I've been really quiet..Not really sure why.. I'm not bothered by anyone thing or upset with any person..Now anyone who knows me .. I'm usually the loudest talker, loudest to holler, loudest to laugh at church.. and of a sudden there is something that has come over me.. I know this sounds totally odd..And now I'm not crazy or going mentally down... I have been praying more and just really taking in 110% in living a godly life.. trying be a good christian woman..

Part of me .. I guess is really hitting me that my husband doesn't attend church with me and my kids.. I feel like there is a peice that is missing between jeff & I. I see couples in our church and they couldn't be closer than peas & carrots. I read blogs that the wife & the husband pray & worship. Can You just imagine... some of you have that.. and are so incredibly blessed but for a second.. I'm thinking that would be the most incredible thing to happen. I know I can't give up... I can't.. I used to think when I was first baptized that it would never come to be that my husband would never make that step into the church doors. I shouldn't think in that way.. I should be positive.. About a month ago, our pastor had given a sermon on MIRACLES. He asked three questions. . 1)Who needs a miracle? 2)How bad do you want that miracle? 3)What are you gonna do to get that miracle? After service they had a alter call and I remember going up to the front and kneeling down. I told god that I had a miracle and I wanted nothing more than my husband to start coming to church and be baptized in jesus name. I said I would do whatever it takes.. I have cried many tears over this .. many.. it would seem when we'd take a few steps forward .. he would slide a few back..

I go on to say this because what ever miracle you are wanting.. do not.. listen here DO NOT give up.. I wouldn't have ever thought that god would give me such peace with my life.. Of course we have our ups and downs on days..and we question why plans happen to change the way they do? But it's not in our hands to write out our plan for life. He has our plan already figured and mapped out.I guess that is why I'm so calm and reserved lately.. I never really undersood how people could go and pray to god and be at peace with their thoughts.. BUT I do now.. I get.. I really get it.. I can feel lost, confused, upset or frustrated and I go and pray, and pray some more.

The other night when I had first read about stellan, MckMama's son I just began to cry, I began to wonder how at one point they are going in the pace of life and the next her son is in PICU with heart problems.. then I read ladies that have went over and beyond to conceive and have precious miracle babies and have such difficulty. Is their a part of me that wonders why I had 4 and here some aren't blessed with just one.. I feel a loss of words at times because what do you say to console them.. No words are going to even compare because I haven't experienced having that sick of a child that requires hospitalization or I haven't experienced the battles of infertility... I don't even think I do as much for them spirtually as they do for me.. They have a light that shines of strength and faith with believe and praise all wrapped up into one.

I am so thankful for the ladies I have crossed paths with online.

These are my random thoughts today

Huge Hugs,

I wanted to add these in at the end here for encouragement.

HANDY LITTLE CHART - GOD HAS A POSITIVE ANSWER:

YOU SAY
GOD SAYS
BIBLE VERSES

You say: 'It's impossible'
God says: All things are possible
(Luke 18:27)

You say: 'I'm too tired'
God says: I will give you rest
(Matthew 11:28-30)

You say: 'Nobody really loves me'
God says: I love you
(John 3:1 6 & John 3:34 )

You say: 'I can't go on'
God says: My grace is sufficient
(II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)

You say: 'I can't figure things out'
God says: I will direct your steps
(Proverbs 3:5- 6)

You say: 'I can't do it'
God says: You can do all things
(Philippians 4:13)

You say: 'I'm not able'
God says: I am able
(II Corinthians 9:8)

You say: 'It's not worth it'
God says: It will be worth it
(Roman 8:28 )

You say: 'I can't forgive myself'
God says: I Forgive you
(I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)

You say: 'I can't manage'
God says: I will supply all your needs
(Philippians 4:19)

You say: 'I'm afraid'
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear
(II Timothy 1:7)

You say: 'I'm always worried and frustrated'
God says: Cast all your cares on ME
(I Peter 5:7)

You say: 'I'm not smart enough'
God says: I give you wisdom
(I Corinthians 1:30)

You say: 'I feel all alone'
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you
(Hebrews 13:5)

Wordless Wednesday Part 2

2009-03-25T02:01:00.000-05:00

Still Going Strong

2009-03-24T19:50:00.000-05:00

I wanted to take a minute and say thoughts and prayers are still going up for Baby Stellan with MckMama.. Just reading her post today is something.. her faith, her strength... I don't know if that was my child .. would I be so incredibly strong and at peace with the decisions our god ultimately makes... MckMama is just makes you really think about things... You just gotta read and get to know her...
Please if you wish, hit MckMiracles badge on left for updates and she's also on twitter..

Also, Kami a.k.a Life with Mimi .. is getting ready for retrieval soon... prayers are going up for healthy follies.. a strong lining for these babies to attach soon when it's time... I couldn't even imagine being in mimi's shoes.. and having to experience her trials with IVF. She is an amazing women and she is so awesome to follow as a new blog friend that I am...I have four children and I feel blessed with each one... and in the same breath I can't help but be excited for her coming up retrieval day and then next heading into transfer day... eventhough we might all have a few miles of distance between all of us .. it's like we live right in the same neighborhood...lol...love.. it love.. it .. I can't wait to read the post on the day she says BABY BABY.. definitely will have to get to knitting a blanket... You're
a inspirational child of god..

Okay......Well, day 2 almost down and getting ready to move onto day 3 of Spring Break... So far.. kids are a little bored.. driving each other a little batty.. and me ...can only play referee for so long for you just send them to different sections of the house until they can get along again.. Wheew...

So looking at my to do list I had posted a few days back...

Staying caught up on laundry... Praise god for that.. it seems to be as soon as you catch up like more comes shootin down the stairs.. it almost like it gets dirtied in the middle of the night somehow... hmmm...

Pictures...oh pictures... I got some inside pictures but It has been SUPER windy.. I'm talking about take your hair and blow away windy..If you were wearing a skirt... hope to all goodness it was static clinging to your pantyhouse..lol... Where was I .. oh back to pictures.. we had some rain so it's a bit soggy for outside pictures but I hope to squeeze some in before it rains again..which IS right around the corner.. even I heard the S word.. yea i'm saying SNOW... SNOW.. in march only in missouri would it SNOW in MARCH..

Slowly but surely choppin at the list..I need to put a wiggle in it.. We are having youth week at church with services ongoing until sunday evening.. so every evening from here on out will be busy busy.. It's quite alright.. praising god takes presidence over all of this minor stuff..Praising... Praising...God is very good to us and he is our mighty god that is here at all times... Everyone knows I posted my get up and praise song "I'm free"... Holy Cow.. I heard it in the car yesterday morning and this morning.. talk about goose bumps... I was jammin and clapping and praising and singing like no other...(usually i'm an indoor closet singer) I didn't care who overheard me.. that is the beauty of praising god.. you never look goofy to him.. one might feel intimidated at home, out in public or even in church to sing, shout, dance and praise our god.. but never ever feel embaressed... what matters is your relationship with him..

Until next time and leaving with HUGE HUGS,

Let's take a Minute

2009-03-23T20:48:00.001-05:00

**I was thinking this evening while in my car that I needed to get onto my blog and post** something said .. now there's something you need to read..

I logged on and hit Baby Veiyah's badge.. (on my blog on the right) first things I read is Please Dirty you Knees...

It's regarding Baby Stellan on

It's his heart.. right now he's in PICU.. unregular beating..

So we know as faithful bloggers.. let's pray...

Mck Mama is such a faithful, christian women with a love of god that just inspires you.. I have found a lot of strength, love in the god she knows that will NOT fail us.. NO MATTER WHAT...

Let's say that again.. Some of us need to breathe that in... GOD WILL NOT EVER LEAVE US NOR FORSAKE US...

It is in your hands oh god.... only you know of this plan with baby stellan.. may you give Mck Mama and Prince Charming peace.. give them strength to make these defying choices in this time...

I praise your name with all of my being, you are a faithfull god and you will never turn your back...

Thank you for reading tonight and please hit her badge for updates and sending prayers up right now...

Huge Hugs,

Stephanie

Praise on Sunday

2009-03-22T13:37:00.000-05:00

A new known fact about me is that I love music.. I could sleep, eat and breathe music... LOVE< LOVE< LOVE IT... So.. listening to music.. and this song caught my attention..I heard a gazillion times but at this point in my life.. I was loving this song.. So awesome.. I was in my car driving but I tell you what if I could stopped right there and started dancing and praising... it would've been awesome.. God is so good and I hope this song.. will pick you up, get you to stand, raise your hands, praise god.. and be thankful we are FREE...

So.. hit pause on my playlist...don't be shy... do a couple turns.. once you get moving there's nothing getting in your way!!

Love,

Soaked Saturday

2009-03-21T16:48:00.001-05:00

It seems to be that if you step outside today, you will definitely need either a rain jacket and umbrella or a canoe with rowers. It has been raining since the wee early hours of the day...

Rainy, cool weather can make a person droopy, sleepy, lazy or feeling just in a funk.. Nothing out of the ordinary has went down but just feeling quiet today..

I am glad I got up and was motivated to put the floating clean laundry away.. I don't mind to do the actual wash/dry part but puting it away .. oh boy.. dread it.. so I had at least.. 4 baskets .. yes I know 4 .. that's alot.. Give me some credit it was all clean ..just hadn't made it up the 13 stairs into the cozy drawers...

Spring Break has officially kicked off... PRAISE GOD... (I think).. ask me again here oh about wednesday.. and I'll be praying for the speed of lightening to hit and monday to come back around..

A few to-do things on here.. Making note so sure to get done:

Deep cleaning

Upstairs hallway closet.. You open that door without stability and it will knock you down with a pillowcase or two..

My bedroom..(We'll just let that one sit at that)

Floors..

Oh take some pictures... I so hope it's nice enough to take some new pics..

I also want to make more time for prayer and reading my bible..It sounds terrible that I don't put ME time into my bible studying.. Okay it's a deal... A pack for myself and others who wish to join in putting more into our god.. It's the least we could do considering what he's done for us..

Well I need to start writing on a paper for school... yep and read my bible...

Until next time...

Love,

Thankful Thursday

2009-03-19T12:54:00.000-05:00

Thankful Thursday....

I want to kind of go with a theme here.. not sure if that is the word I'm thinking of but today or thursday's I want to Headline them as just that 'Thankful Thursday'..

1. Thankful we have a god to serve.

2. Thankful I can go anytime to our god and pray..

3. Thankful I am married and that eventhough we have rocky times.. it's gonna be okay.
4. Thankful I have 4 children including jeff's girls from previously..(which I still count as my own)..love them all...especially my first grandbaby ..miss novalee... cutie pie!!

5. Thankful I am able to be a SAHM and attend college classes online.

6. Thankful that at this time we have a home, electric, all the essentials we are needing. In this time we are not to take things for granted...

7. Thankful I have the ability to be online and have my blog to be able to share my thoughts, and know that others wanna hear me.

8. Thankful for the women I've found online while blogging.. To be followed is not always a bad thing..:) It reminds you that.. you can have great friends through the capabilities of the web..:)

9. Thankful for the ability to be able to knit and crochet.. praise god.. I wouldn't trade my yarn obsession for nothing..

10. Thankful for thin mint cookies... Gotta love them...

The list could keep growing.. small or large things to be thankful is incredible blessings..I know in today's hours if you watch the news or read the papers... some of the writing can scare the bajeebies out of you.... If you find a few blogs.. they can make you down...

I want my blog to be of hope, strength and faith.. to encourage others to look outside of all the ugly and see there is sunshine too..

I haven't experienced even half of the things some ladies are going through but I've been down a couple hilly roads.. Back then honestly I can say I was mad.. mad at god for things turning out not the way I wanted them to. Back in between my kids in 2000 and 2004 I had miscarriages. Both times were each a set of twins. It is incredibly hard to see the good when you have lost a child. I know terminology wise it's considered an embryo but these were my babies.. After years having gone by ....I see now that if I would've had these babies, I probably wouldn't have all my children I have today.. makes you think about it ...With each day, each month, each year the pain lessens but sadness will always be in my heart.

In time I've been through valleys and hills of crazyness..It came to be when my mother in law had passed last April, I was so unsure of our god.. So many things I didn't understand, so much hurt that I couldn't bear to hold it in any longer. When I begun going to church and I remember the day last June.. when I made the choice to surrender all my heart to him and baptized in jesus name... it was the most incredible time of my life.

I'm so thankful when a day is so crazy or overwhelming I am able to stop and pray.. Having god to talk to is the best.. I'm sure I've been caught driving and praying.. people probably thought I was about koo koo.. That's okay though..

Today's post was thick I know with alot of emotions but this is what is on my heart today..

So.. now it's your turn... tell me what you are thankful for...come on don't be shy...there's gotta be a few things..

Wishing you a blessed day with lots of love,

Wordless Wednesday

2009-03-18T00:09:00.000-05:00

Purpose

2009-03-17T23:31:00.000-05:00

**We know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to HIS purpose.** Romans 8:28

There is always a purpose for everything in our lives. There is also reasoning behind every situation inner twinned with each scenario. When I sat out to do this blog innitially it was made to be geared toward yarn. Anyone who knows a bit about me, knows I am a yarn fanatic. I had tethered with the idea to continue with this blog because well as you see there isn't one single pic of yarn. I found there to be an alterior motive for my blog. One day as I was blog searching I had came across baby harper, then linked to baby kaleigh, and on to baby veiyah.. These were just any babies.. these are MIRACLE babies.. I write this to say my purpose for blogging has shifted.. These babies have even confirmed in my heart more than ever that I want to be a nurse with the deepest part of my soul.Whether it be in the NICU with miracle babies like veiyah or harper or be right beside a mom that has tried for so long to carry a miracle baby and you are about to assist in the delivery. I sat and read story after story of NICU babies and these precious families sharing there lives as they unfold daily for the whole world to read. I reiterate ... their is a reason behind every outcome.. A purpose... Nothing just happens just because... Back to my blogging I had come across blog after blog of women ... these women are amazing. They are christian, god loving women but also they are women that are for whatever reasons are going through IVF. My latest blog I stumbled upon would be Life with Mimi. Her name is Kami and it's her life through IVF. I found that her sharing her day to day trials very courageous in the fact that she is letting whomever wants to join her on this journey. I can say their is a reason I have found these blogs and their is a purpose of why I came upon Mimi's blog. It was no accident by any means. My love for god and his mercy increases more and more. He is such an amazing god and any confirmation needed .. well open your bible up to the book of Psalms.

Love,

Stephanie

Think about it

2008-10-30T22:46:00.001-05:00

I find it fitting that things fall into our lap just when we need them...The following was sent to me just this morning and I just wanted to post it for others read and as one says "Think about it."

What if . . . . . . . . . . . .

What if God couldn't take the time to bless us today because we couldn't take the time to thank him yesterday?

What if God decided to stop leading us tomorrow because we didn't follow him today?

What if we never saw another flower bloom because we grumbled when God sent the rain?

What if God didn't walk with us today because we failed to recognize it as his day?

What if God took away the bible tomorrow because we wouldn't read it today?

What if God took away his message because we failed to listen to the messenger?

THINK ABOUT THIS ONE......

What if God didn't send his only begotten son because he wanted us to be prepared to pay the price for sin?

What if the door of the church was closed because we didn't open the door of our heart?

What if God stopped loving and caring for us because we failed to love and care for others?

What if God wouldn't hear us today because we wouldn't listen to him yesterday?

What if God answered our prayers the way we answer his call to service?

What if God met our needs the way we give him our lives?

Love,

Gut Feeling

2008-10-30T00:49:00.000-05:00

It has been quite sometime since I last blogged. Seems like so long ago I started with my first blog and then there is a gap there. It's not like things didn't happen to fill the blog space, it just seems to be gradually one thing after another. That one day back in Feb. I had this feeling to start a blog and then I wasn't really sure about blogging but now I know.... and this might sound crazy...I kept hearing this going through my thoughts.. "Try it again..Go for it..It'll be worth it!" I have no idea where this road will lead but we'll just take this journey and roll with it..

So many things to say.. I will start slow this first morning getting back. We had church last night... God is so good and he is our rock, our strength. One of my songs I ultimately love goes like this.. Faith,Faith,Faith just a little bit of faith ...you don't need alot just use what you got ...Faith, Faith, Faith. It doesn't take alot... I know everyone in their lives has had trials and downslopes where it feels like you going 90 to nothing on and you just can't seem to get a grip on life. The days you might have where you just want to grab your pillow and scream as loud as you can into it. I'm here to say "You can do it and everything will work out.... Along with FAITH our sermon was about HOPE.. We're all human and in today's world hope can be kinda of scarce to find. As a person well we're male or female you just got reach in there and grab hope by the harness and pull it tight. You can't let go and let it fade away.

There are so many good blogs out there in our cyberworld but If I can give just one person a little inspiration filled with hope and faith then that has made my day!!

Monday, Febuary 25,2007

2008-02-25T19:12:00.000-06:00

Evening to everyone. I am new at this but I had this feeling to start a blog. I wanted to start a place where people could go to see how my life goes and get a crack at what I do in my spare time. You might even relate a little to my stories I have. Talk again soon.