Hello World!!

Man...u wouldn't believe my update if I made it up ...lol I'm here and on real internet so ..updates here they come..I hope everyone is doing ok..its been sooo long since I've done any reading..man do I need to catch up!!


Talk to u all soon

Love n Hugs,


Stephanie

3.5 months...

Yea that's how long since I've last posted! Ha, did anyone wonder did I fall off the planet??

So, anyone want to back track and Mrs. Stephanie will try to bring anyone whose still lingering up to date.

1. After Easter things came to a halt with Hubby and I. We separated.
2. We did get evicted
3. I did withdraw from school which I thought I could continue in the fall. UH NO. I now have a balance of $1300. I'm heartbroken and I received a letter just last week that I have until july 31 to pay in full or I'm toast pretty much. My nursing road is halted.
4. After, a few weeks we reconciled(if you call it that).
Then life took a twist...
5. Jeff was offered a job FINALLY...
6. We packed up the house like The Beverly Hillbillies but moved to.....the COUNTRY!!! Where I have cows for neighbors instead of people. LoL its been different, kinda loney but I'm surviving.
7. So, this is where I've been. I've been still following each of you but I couldn't get my blogger figured out on my blackberry so I was reading but I felt mute because I couldn't respond. I miss all of you dearly.

I have decisions to make considering working. Josh will be 4 and he'll get to go to preschool!! I still will have Ky and I really don't want to work outside the home. Anyone out there know does in home work still exist?? I guess I could open an etsy shop for something small. I know there's moms who work in home ..now if I could just find some insight thatd be nice!

I'm sure there's things I'm missing but I'm a bit sleepy and the crew is getting up in an hour to get kat to camp!!

Alright, I'm gonna rest my head. Feel free to catch me up on anything I may have missed.

Hugs,

Stephanie

wow....it's been over a month..

Well where do I even begin?


So, its been over a month and some things have changed and some not so much. Without trying to be super crazy throwing everything all out there here's the jist..............


Hubby has been unemployed now for 5 months. Ive managed to keep us afloat with income tax refund along with my school loan refund until now....I'm confident to say without the grace of God we would already be homeless. Yea financially its bad..

The last couple months my husband was starting to get very tired, like totally wore out, super thirsty, drinking fluids like no mans business. ..............any guesses










Well he was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes! Numbers so high they wouldn't register on his glucose meter. Since then (abouts a month) his numbers are in the 200's.. his vision went from bad to worse so much that he is nearsighted now. Its a lot to take in.

Meanwhile, in all this my grades in college started to slip and one by one my classes were stopped and yea last week I officially withdrewl from this semester. I've come so far to lose my road but honestly I can't even wrap my head around all this going on in my life. It seems if I work on school work, then I just care about school but if I neglect it then i'm throwing it all away i'm told. Is there a such thing as not really wanting someone to progress but playing the supportive card???


Well about 4 months ago, he started going to church with me and the kids. If your just planting your seeds in church, having faith and keeping strong is not easy by far. I don't know how to explain it but to say when you let just a little doubt in...........well you scoot back. Long before I knew it, he stopped coming with us. To make matters worse he went back to using a crutch known as pot. I was devistated, sad, mad, angry, i'm telling you like every emotion i've dealt with in the last weeks.

I've went to church trying to let go, give it to God and while i think i do, it subsides back in my heart a day or two later. I mean this whole situation with no work, no job offers, thought we're on the same page and we're not at all......was literally making me sick. My pastors wife told me sunday night..your husband is just about to kill you with the grief you're carrying you have got to let go and let me tell you ....................rain it did..................let it rain..........

The tears, the emotions, it was so strong I couldn't contain myself, I tried to control my emotions and wheew there was no holds bar.

So, this is where me .........where i've been these last few weeks...I know they're are many women out there who are in church minus there mates but they just might deal with it a little bit better than myself......I don't know..

So as I must pull up my boot straps cause my floor is needing vacuumed and if you've stuck around this long..Bless you!!!



Hugs,

Stephanie

Saying Bye didn't actually mean....

I was leaving on a jet plane..don't know when i'll be back again!!


It's been over a month.. GOOD GRAVY N BISCUITS!!


I've even lost a follower...officially..

My life is crazy and filled with all kinds of craziness but I just forget to post about it.


Have a great thursday with lots of hugs,


Stephanie

Say bye-bye!!

To ..........................................2009









December 31, 2009.....................and in no time it will be.........











2010 baby!!!!


I can't wait to to what God has in store for 2010!!!






Happy New Year!!!

Hugs,

Stephanie

merry CHRISTmas & a happy new year!!

From our family to yours!!!



Merry Christmas & a happy 2010!!



Hugs,

Stephanie

Thoughts & Question

So.......You like the updated Christmas Background??


I thought i'd revamp this and allow the christmast spirit to shine in the window..

Last night we put up our the Christmas Tree and my digital camera is down but I did take a few with my phone so..........


unless someone could tell me if it's possible to attach them from my phone to here.....or you are welcome to come see me on facebook and ALL my photos are uploaded there!! As you wish either way is okay with me!!


Ahh yes... Some know i'm a knitter and a crochet..i'm wanting to find a super easy, keep my attention hat pattern for kiddies to keep me moving, feeling worthy to give to precious children this chilly winter so if you have an idea, a link or something let me know could you?


Have a beautiful saturday!!

Hugs,

Stephanie

Have you caught on yet??

Hi my name is Stephanie and I'm a emotional rollercoaster blogger!!




It's sunny outside but really I'd like to cover up with a blanket and mold into the couch!!







I hope your Thursday is a good one!!







Hugs,

Stephanie

It's Friday!!

Good Morning to you!:)

I know it's been a few weeks since last posting, I have gotten horrible at keeping up on this..

Life has been crazy, real crazy..

The ups, the downs and all arounds..

The ups...My semester for school is just about a month away..wheew thank goodness..

The downs..My hubby has been out of work for the last 1.5 months..

The ups...we still have alot to be thankful for..

The downs...I don't know how christmas will look this year for the kiddies..

Which makes me really sad :(




In my latest weeks of trial..

The devil did whatever he could to take my JOY..

Do you know that he will lie, cheat and steal to take your happiness from you..

He sent me to a very down place that nobody should visit..

Being overwhelmed with the lifes burdens in todays world can take a toll..

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So this is why i've been out..I reached such a sadness and frustration in my heart that it really took ALOT of prayer to pull me out..

The beauty is no matter how far I slidback, God still wrapped his arms around me and continued to fight to pull me back up..

He is so amazing..

Well, I've got to get moving the kids have school shortly and Mrs. Stephanie is in her jams and i've got errands to run.

Have a beautiful day but do something for me...

Make note of at least one thing your thankful for everyday!!

Big Hugs to those that are still around,

Stephanie

It's Wednesday..............!!

Can I get a Woowoo?



I have really no idea why I'm super loud and excited..Which you know you can express your intensity of your voice through your typing a.k.a. cyber yelling which isn't permitted in my online classes in college..HA..

And..if you knew me ..like here close in person you would find out quickly i'm not quiet..Very loud...


I'm the one parent at the sports games that is hollering every few seconds and you have many sets of eyes staring at you!!

I'm also the one that is banned from cheering in a gymnasium..HA..why oh because I echo..wheew do I echo..

I don't mean to be loud but that is just me..:)

So..it's Wednesday..and I've cleaned up for the most part besides of doing my hair..oh glory be to jesus..if you could see how long it is..you would wonder what I do with all of it..

Yea I can post a pic..as I thought you'd never ask but it'll be this evening..

So I've got to

a. Get trash outside to curb
b. Get it together to run to town
c. Get lil two together and ready
d. Get Math going cause I have class today..


I'm going to try a new thing well new to me..A list..I need to percisely write down what I want to accomplish today and i might just conquer because I am notorious for procastination!!

So you (I say you cause who knows I probably have just about one beautiful ball of sunshine stop by) ..................have a GREAT day and I shall return!!


Hugs,

Stephanie

Yes I'm here!!

I'm here..


I've been around...



Toodling around blogland and i've been reading your blogs, replying for the most part..but not mustering up enough energy to post something of my own.

It's not that I couldn't find something to talk about because My Crazy Life seems to always take left and right turns ...just not sitting down to post..because i'm sure i'd ramble like I am now..

So..

Just wanted to send a shout out and I'll post another post sooner rather than later..with all kinds of juicy info..(Who am I kidding I live in Missouri..nothing exciting happens here but the weather change we face)

Hugs & I'll be back :)

Stephanie

I've been up to my eyeballs in...

Laundry



Dishes


Running errands


Homework

More homwework

Supervising the kids n there homework

Mainly just running like a crazy mad woman because there isn't enough time in the day to do everything calm and collectively....

So here's to Monday!!!!

Hugs,

Stephanie

Please Would You Pray...

During the time I was reading up on some blogs I read about this beautiful family.


They are the Sullivan Family and they truely need our prayers...www.bandssullivan.blogspot.com

From what I read this is a family of a Husband/Wife and a adorable baby names Chloe. The Wife named Sara had breast cancer while she was pregnant with Chloe. She had Chloe last week and they were home just two days when things took a turn and Sara began to have a seizure. Since then she was put on life support and yesterday she went onto Heaven. The Husband is now to care for Chloe...

I know that our God knows the situation and he has a greater plan than we could ever imagine..

Please I ask that you would pray for them and stop by their blog and leave some words of encouragement & love.

Thank you,

Stephanie

I know I am 1 week past last Monday posting but this will better explain what I've been up to....

One long title right?


I know I stated I was to start answering your questions and believe you me ..everyday that passed I thought oh goodness, I meant to write on my blog and another day gone............





So... we have literally been at our church every night starting last monday with the exception of Tuesday......


And this is why...............And Let me say doing work for the Lord is INCREDIBLE...





Our Revival was geared toward the children BUT let me say God has a way of bringing everyone together....and Adults were touched as well..


Last night was our final night of Revival..

Everyone was praying up at the front and a young women came up and requested prayer for her shoulder. She had been in a car accident and was unable to move it and really the dr.s told her she was looking to have surgery........


This kids were up at the alter and my daughter K and another little girl E was praying. This women asked if the girls would pray for her.......as they held hands and prayed, God was touching, he was healing, his presence was incredible...


After prayer was over, she said "My shoulder, I can move it now"!!! She said it was hurting and I couldn't move it and now I can raise it up and down!!


God is so good and see my girl be overjoyed at God's healing is EVEN more AWESOME!!

I wanted to post this to give you strength today ..for whatever you are in need of in your life God will supply it!!

All you beautiful ladies have a blessed monday and I'll plan to post Q & A answers starting tomorrow....

Hugs & More Hugs,

Stephanie

Keep'em coming~~~~~

Happy Wednesday to the beautiful ladies out there..... :)


I LOVE reading the questions....I'm so excited to start on them......(which will be next monday)


It's been a day of running here and there...so i'm gonna try to sneak in some MATH homework.. Lord help me with this...whip some dinner...(chicken and noodles) and get ready to head into the House of the Lord and be refreshed..

So..you pretty ladies keep thinkin of them questions and I am excited to continue reading them...as you all know i'm a talker and so these post will be quite interesting..

Hugs to each of you!!!

Stephanie

Q........&........A TIME

Okay so...........


Some might not like alot of questions...........














BUT .............I do..........


So..since....I think Q & A is exciting and eventful.....











If you have any...........send them my way......and I'll be excited and willing to answer any you have........



No question is too crazy, dumb, embaressing, serious, you get it..nothing is off limits.....


So........HAVE A GREAT TUESDAY!!!


Hugs,

Stephanie

I bet you were starting to think............

I did vanish huh?


I wrote that post with no intentions of like poofing into thin air and becoming M.I.A......Cause that would just be rude and I in no way wanted to send off with a rude post.....I know it's been a crazy summer, seriously oh do I know..I was starting to think well, I do tend to have crazy moments in my life I could post but really I have a love for lord so huge that you can't even measure it..and to witness to people and talking,singing, praying..to some that can send others the other direction.

~~Please also know when I ask any of you if you have a prayer request, it is meant with the highest respect..I believe in prayer, it works.. I've seen it work..~~ MckMama last post she spoke about "Being careful what you pray for, cause you NEVER know" Oh I almost fell outta my seat when I was reading it and it's just because 48 hours ago my husband and I were discussing that and how it applies to us in our home and the change of events that has transpired..)Oh did you catch that part where I wrote my hubby and I talking about prayer..(that's a whole other post of things changing)...Back to my thought..

IF YOU HAVE A PRAYER REQUEST,whatever it is, please let me pray with you..You can reach me by here, my prayer blog, facebook or email...Just so you know..


Alot has been going on & so much to write about......


For now i'm off to the shower to get ready to start another crazy............day...

For some reason here lately, their just isn't enough time in the day to get done things.....seriously I have homework stacked....(Yep Mua..)someone help me now!!

So...

Know I am here and I do ready your guys posts, not always do I reply but I do think of each of you all the time and praying for each of you..We might not all live on the same street like neighbors but you ladies are special that's forsure..


Have a Beautiful Thursday W/ lots of Hugs coming your way!!!

Stephanie

One by One

One by One..............







I have lost................










Each followers interest....................









To my Blog.....................








So, .......................




I'm deciding on whether or not to close it down..................










But know i'm still here....And if you have a prayer request, please let me know.



Many Hugs,



Stephanie

Ups & Downs

Through the days we live...... we are bound to travel roads that give us curvy, side roads we take..........


Without going in detail..................................


Yesterday I was broken,hurt,mad,sad,angry,upset,confused,furious,scared...and I still am.....but ...........

I am so thankful and so grateful I serve a God who loves, and cares..and he is my strength...

I posted something on facebook last night stating..God please wrap your arms around me..A friend of mine linked me to the most beautiful song...

I want to say..NO matter what you are facing he loves you with all his heart..
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Just stop and listen..close your eyes...hear the words..it will touch you I promise..





Many Hugs,

Stephanie

My lil J = 3

Between my birthday and lil j's birthday there are 5 days.....


I never thought three years ago, he would come in the way he did. I was pregnant at 36 weeks and we still had not came to a decision on a name. At this time my hubby worked late hours so coming in one morning about 4, I said "We have got to come up with something because we NEVER know what might happen..." We threw around names and Joshua came out..Loved it..and DONE......or so we thought..

The previous night, I was knitting and experiencing some back pain but didn't think much of it really so as hubby was getting settled towards heading to bed, I made a pit stop at the restroom.......

Let's just say #1 didn't stop as quickly as it should of......

HA.....I stood up and you would've thought someone turned on the faucet...Now I never experienced a water break on my own but yea you know when it happens..

So here I am hollering,........and hollering......and hollering....lord only knows where my hubby is and what he's doing...

K comes running in and said "What's the matter"? ..I said hello... I've flooded the floor here, go get your father.................................

Finally, he came and seen what was all the fuss was about.....I said well, Josh decided he was ready when he heard his name...


So mind you, i'm still waiting to drain w/ a towel...trying to get all our stuff together and hubby says "Can I take a quick shower?"....oh ..sure I thought, I'm not going in where..I said you better hope to all goodness I don't start into contractions...we're gonna have issues.....


Moving forward......onto checking in..........I love when you get there and they ask you why your there and you reply.......my water broke........Are you sure they say?...Uh yea, pretty sure, if not that was alot of potty...ALOT...


Progressed well...and here he was....the smallest, precious baby i've ever had. Coming in at 7 pds even. He struggled with his blood sugar so it was debated for him to go to NICU but ended up going to nursery. To this day you can see the little pricks on his heels from where they tested him every hour the first 24 hours..We'd have to have I believe so many good numbers in a row.. and if we had to good sets and then a bad number, we'd start ALL over....

For him coming a month early, he is healthy for the most part...He does seem to get chest congestion colds easy and requires inhalers at those times but other than that..he's okay...He is our smallest kid..My first two came in at 8"13 and 8"12, (talk about PAIN) Holy Guacamoli... and my last girl was 8 even....

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Having told lil J's story...we're switching gears because also this week we are POTTY TRAINING.......WooHoo.......


Anyone that has had two in diapers at the same time.......let me say......you feel like your drowning in the sea of potties & poo's..........


My first two were diaperless at 2 weeks shy of 3.....

Now lil J on the other hand, he has been going okay but becoming diaper free wasn't going so well...

UNTIL NOW.....................................................

I am happy to say Day 3 and we are crusing awesomely.......

Day 1 went great
Day 2 minor accident, going on his own.
Day 3 completely out and done ....crossing fingers...

Our first day I seriously thought we were gonna wear out the carpet going every 30 minutes...The end of the first night he'd say "I'm so tired"...lol..

Bittersweet.....eventhough I'm glad that just one more year and diapers will be a thing of the past..but sad to know no more babies... :(

Now that i've kept you this long, I should tell you my humorous part with my youngest..

lil k is my most patience taker, most awnry, most emotional, most dramatic, child I have .....MOST high maintenence...

As she has seen her brother go potty for a few months now.......she has come to the conclusion.......she can too.....................STANDING UP!!!!!!

Trying to tell a one year and explain she can't stand and potty ...isn't easy.......no matter what i say she'll take her diaper off and stand on her tip toes..just hoping her potty will curve and hit the tiolet..........It's funny on one end but not so much cleaning up her messes......

Surely within the next year she'll transition into sitting ............right?.....or i'll have to get her the female funnel to potty in ...........Can you imagine........I'm not even gonna go there..........

So......I'm off to clean the house up for some cake and ice cream to celebrate my handsome boy turning 3 today!!

Many Hugs & enjoy your weekend...

Stephanie