**Sunny Saturday**

Gorgeous...Gorgeous Sun out this morning...

Soccer rocked this morning.. Seems to be game time at 8:00 a.m. is awesome for our kiddos... our team the Sonics... Won... 9 to 0.

Of course, Mrs. Stephanie's camera was battery less... BUT wait.. wait...

We got 2 goals...lol..of course when mom doesn't have click, clicks of the camera to back it up..

Awesome, Awesome Saturday...Enjoy this day that the lord hath made..I will rejoice and be glad in him...

Sunday's coming....

Huge Hugs,

Thoughts for Thursday

**I warn you.. lengthy post today..**

These are a few of my random thoughts today.. I didn't really feel compelled to just talk about one thing so I thought hmmm. why not just chitter chat about a few things...

I'm not sure where to go from here..These last few days or week I'm guessing I've been really quiet..Not really sure why.. I'm not bothered by anyone thing or upset with any person..Now anyone who knows me .. I'm usually the loudest talker, loudest to holler, loudest to laugh at church.. and of a sudden there is something that has come over me.. I know this sounds totally odd..And now I'm not crazy or going mentally down... I have been praying more and just really taking in 110% in living a godly life.. trying be a good christian woman..

Part of me .. I guess is really hitting me that my husband doesn't attend church with me and my kids.. I feel like there is a peice that is missing between jeff & I. I see couples in our church and they couldn't be closer than peas & carrots. I read blogs that the wife & the husband pray & worship. Can You just imagine... some of you have that.. and are so incredibly blessed but for a second.. I'm thinking that would be the most incredible thing to happen. I know I can't give up... I can't.. I used to think when I was first baptized that it would never come to be that my husband would never make that step into the church doors. I shouldn't think in that way.. I should be positive.. About a month ago, our pastor had given a sermon on MIRACLES. He asked three questions. . 1)Who needs a miracle? 2)How bad do you want that miracle? 3)What are you gonna do to get that miracle? After service they had a alter call and I remember going up to the front and kneeling down. I told god that I had a miracle and I wanted nothing more than my husband to start coming to church and be baptized in jesus name. I said I would do whatever it takes.. I have cried many tears over this .. many.. it would seem when we'd take a few steps forward .. he would slide a few back..

I go on to say this because what ever miracle you are wanting.. do not.. listen here DO NOT give up.. I wouldn't have ever thought that god would give me such peace with my life.. Of course we have our ups and downs on days..and we question why plans happen to change the way they do? But it's not in our hands to write out our plan for life. He has our plan already figured and mapped out.I guess that is why I'm so calm and reserved lately.. I never really undersood how people could go and pray to god and be at peace with their thoughts.. BUT I do now.. I get.. I really get it.. I can feel lost, confused, upset or frustrated and I go and pray, and pray some more.

The other night when I had first read about stellan, MckMama's son I just began to cry, I began to wonder how at one point they are going in the pace of life and the next her son is in PICU with heart problems.. then I read ladies that have went over and beyond to conceive and have precious miracle babies and have such difficulty. Is their a part of me that wonders why I had 4 and here some aren't blessed with just one.. I feel a loss of words at times because what do you say to console them.. No words are going to even compare because I haven't experienced having that sick of a child that requires hospitalization or I haven't experienced the battles of infertility... I don't even think I do as much for them spirtually as they do for me.. They have a light that shines of strength and faith with believe and praise all wrapped up into one.

I am so thankful for the ladies I have crossed paths with online.

These are my random thoughts today

Huge Hugs,




I wanted to add these in at the end here for encouragement.

HANDY LITTLE CHART - GOD HAS A POSITIVE ANSWER:



YOU SAY
GOD SAYS
BIBLE VERSES

You say: 'It's impossible'
God says: All things are possible
(Luke 18:27)

You say: 'I'm too tired'
God says: I will give you rest
(Matthew 11:28-30)

You say: 'Nobody really loves me'
God says: I love you
(John 3:1 6 & John 3:34 )

You say: 'I can't go on'
God says: My grace is sufficient
(II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)

You say: 'I can't figure things out'
God says: I will direct your steps
(Proverbs 3:5- 6)

You say: 'I can't do it'
God says: You can do all things
(Philippians 4:13)

You say: 'I'm not able'
God says: I am able
(II Corinthians 9:8)

You say: 'It's not worth it'
God says: It will be worth it
(Roman 8:28 )

You say: 'I can't forgive myself'
God says: I Forgive you
(I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)

You say: 'I can't manage'
God says: I will supply all your needs
(Philippians 4:19)

You say: 'I'm afraid'
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear
(II Timothy 1:7)

You say: 'I'm always worried and frustrated'
God says: Cast all your cares on ME
(I Peter 5:7)

You say: 'I'm not smart enough'
God says: I give you wisdom
(I Corinthians 1:30)

You say: 'I feel all alone'
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you
(Hebrews 13:5)

Still Going Strong

I wanted to take a minute and say thoughts and prayers are still going up for Baby Stellan with MckMama.. Just reading her post today is something.. her faith, her strength... I don't know if that was my child .. would I be so incredibly strong and at peace with the decisions our god ultimately makes... MckMama is just makes you really think about things... You just gotta read and get to know her...
Please if you wish, hit MckMiracles badge on left for updates and she's also on twitter..


Also, Kami a.k.a Life with Mimi .. is getting ready for retrieval soon... prayers are going up for healthy follies.. a strong lining for these babies to attach soon when it's time... I couldn't even imagine being in mimi's shoes.. and having to experience her trials with IVF. She is an amazing women and she is so awesome to follow as a new blog friend that I am...I have four children and I feel blessed with each one... and in the same breath I can't help but be excited for her coming up retrieval day and then next heading into transfer day... eventhough we might all have a few miles of distance between all of us .. it's like we live right in the same neighborhood...lol...love.. it love.. it .. I can't wait to read the post on the day she says BABY BABY.. definitely will have to get to knitting a blanket... You're
a inspirational child of god..

Okay......Well, day 2 almost down and getting ready to move onto day 3 of Spring Break... So far.. kids are a little bored.. driving each other a little batty.. and me ...can only play referee for so long for you just send them to different sections of the house until they can get along again.. Wheew...

So looking at my to do list I had posted a few days back...

Staying caught up on laundry... Praise god for that.. it seems to be as soon as you catch up like more comes shootin down the stairs.. it almost like it gets dirtied in the middle of the night somehow... hmmm...

Pictures...oh pictures... I got some inside pictures but It has been SUPER windy.. I'm talking about take your hair and blow away windy..If you were wearing a skirt... hope to all goodness it was static clinging to your pantyhouse..lol... Where was I .. oh back to pictures.. we had some rain so it's a bit soggy for outside pictures but I hope to squeeze some in before it rains again..which IS right around the corner.. even I heard the S word.. yea i'm saying SNOW... SNOW.. in march only in missouri would it SNOW in MARCH..

Slowly but surely choppin at the list..I need to put a wiggle in it.. We are having youth week at church with services ongoing until sunday evening.. so every evening from here on out will be busy busy.. It's quite alright.. praising god takes presidence over all of this minor stuff..Praising... Praising...God is very good to us and he is our mighty god that is here at all times... Everyone knows I posted my get up and praise song "I'm free"... Holy Cow.. I heard it in the car yesterday morning and this morning.. talk about goose bumps... I was jammin and clapping and praising and singing like no other...(usually i'm an indoor closet singer) I didn't care who overheard me.. that is the beauty of praising god.. you never look goofy to him.. one might feel intimidated at home, out in public or even in church to sing, shout, dance and praise our god.. but never ever feel embaressed... what matters is your relationship with him..

Until next time and leaving with HUGE HUGS,

**Soaked Saturday**

It seems to be that if you step outside today, you will definitely need either a rain jacket and umbrella or a canoe with rowers. It has been raining since the wee early hours of the day...

Rainy, cool weather can make a person droopy, sleepy, lazy or feeling just in a funk.. Nothing out of the ordinary has went down but just feeling quiet today..

I am glad I got up and was motivated to put the floating clean laundry away.. I don't mind to do the actual wash/dry part but puting it away .. oh boy.. dread it.. so I had at least.. 4 baskets .. yes I know 4 .. that's alot.. Give me some credit it was all clean ..just hadn't made it up the 13 stairs into the cozy drawers...

Spring Break has officially kicked off... PRAISE GOD... (I think).. ask me again here oh about wednesday.. and I'll be praying for the speed of lightening to hit and monday to come back around..

A few to-do things on here.. Making note so sure to get done:

Deep cleaning

Upstairs hallway closet.. You open that door without stability and it will knock you down with a pillowcase or two..

My bedroom..(We'll just let that one sit at that)

Floors..

Oh take some pictures... I so hope it's nice enough to take some new pics..


I also want to make more time for prayer and reading my bible..It sounds terrible that I don't put ME time into my bible studying.. Okay it's a deal... A pack for myself and others who wish to join in putting more into our god.. It's the least we could do considering what he's done for us..

Well I need to start writing on a paper for school... yep and read my bible...

Until next time...

Love,

Thankful Thursday

Thankful Thursday....

I want to kind of go with a theme here.. not sure if that is the word I'm thinking of but today or thursday's I want to Headline them as just that 'Thankful Thursday'..

1. Thankful we have a god to serve.

2. Thankful I can go anytime to our god and pray..

3. Thankful I am married and that eventhough we have rocky times.. it's gonna be okay.
4. Thankful I have 4 children including jeff's girls from previously..(which I still count as my own)..love them all...especially my first grandbaby ..miss novalee... cutie pie!!

5. Thankful I am able to be a SAHM and attend college classes online.

6. Thankful that at this time we have a home, electric, all the essentials we are needing. In this time we are not to take things for granted...

7. Thankful I have the ability to be online and have my blog to be able to share my thoughts, and know that others wanna hear me.

8. Thankful for the women I've found online while blogging.. To be followed is not always a bad thing..:) It reminds you that.. you can have great friends through the capabilities of the web..:)

9. Thankful for the ability to be able to knit and crochet.. praise god.. I wouldn't trade my yarn obsession for nothing..

10. Thankful for thin mint cookies... Gotta love them...

The list could keep growing.. small or large things to be thankful is incredible blessings..I know in today's hours if you watch the news or read the papers... some of the writing can scare the bajeebies out of you.... If you find a few blogs.. they can make you down...

I want my blog to be of hope, strength and faith.. to encourage others to look outside of all the ugly and see there is sunshine too..

I haven't experienced even half of the things some ladies are going through but I've been down a couple hilly roads.. Back then honestly I can say I was mad.. mad at god for things turning out not the way I wanted them to. Back in between my kids in 2000 and 2004 I had miscarriages. Both times were each a set of twins. It is incredibly hard to see the good when you have lost a child. I know terminology wise it's considered an embryo but these were my babies.. After years having gone by ....I see now that if I would've had these babies, I probably wouldn't have all my children I have today.. makes you think about it ...With each day, each month, each year the pain lessens but sadness will always be in my heart.

In time I've been through valleys and hills of crazyness..It came to be when my mother in law had passed last April, I was so unsure of our god.. So many things I didn't understand, so much hurt that I couldn't bear to hold it in any longer. When I begun going to church and I remember the day last June.. when I made the choice to surrender all my heart to him and baptized in jesus name... it was the most incredible time of my life.

I'm so thankful when a day is so crazy or overwhelming I am able to stop and pray.. Having god to talk to is the best.. I'm sure I've been caught driving and praying.. people probably thought I was about koo koo.. That's okay though..

Today's post was thick I know with alot of emotions but this is what is on my heart today..

So.. now it's your turn... tell me what you are thankful for...come on don't be shy...there's gotta be a few things..

Wishing you a blessed day with lots of love,

Purpose

**We know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to HIS purpose.** Romans 8:28

There is always a purpose for everything in our lives. There is also reasoning behind every situation inner twinned with each scenario. When I sat out to do this blog innitially it was made to be geared toward yarn. Anyone who knows a bit about me, knows I am a yarn fanatic. I had tethered with the idea to continue with this blog because well as you see there isn't one single pic of yarn. I found there to be an alterior motive for my blog. One day as I was blog searching I had came across baby harper, then linked to baby kaleigh, and on to baby veiyah.. These were just any babies.. these are MIRACLE babies.. I write this to say my purpose for blogging has shifted.. These babies have even confirmed in my heart more than ever that I want to be a nurse with the deepest part of my soul.Whether it be in the NICU with miracle babies like veiyah or harper or be right beside a mom that has tried for so long to carry a miracle baby and you are about to assist in the delivery. I sat and read story after story of NICU babies and these precious families sharing there lives as they unfold daily for the whole world to read. I reiterate ... their is a reason behind every outcome.. A purpose... Nothing just happens just because... Back to my blogging I had come across blog after blog of women ... these women are amazing. They are christian, god loving women but also they are women that are for whatever reasons are going through IVF. My latest blog I stumbled upon would be Life with Mimi. Her name is Kami and it's her life through IVF. I found that her sharing her day to day trials very courageous in the fact that she is letting whomever wants to join her on this journey. I can say their is a reason I have found these blogs and their is a purpose of why I came upon Mimi's blog. It was no accident by any means. My love for god and his mercy increases more and more. He is such an amazing god and any confirmation needed .. well open your bible up to the book of Psalms.



Love,


Stephanie