3.5 months...

Yea that's how long since I've last posted! Ha, did anyone wonder did I fall off the planet??

So, anyone want to back track and Mrs. Stephanie will try to bring anyone whose still lingering up to date.

1. After Easter things came to a halt with Hubby and I. We separated.
2. We did get evicted
3. I did withdraw from school which I thought I could continue in the fall. UH NO. I now have a balance of $1300. I'm heartbroken and I received a letter just last week that I have until july 31 to pay in full or I'm toast pretty much. My nursing road is halted.
4. After, a few weeks we reconciled(if you call it that).
Then life took a twist...
5. Jeff was offered a job FINALLY...
6. We packed up the house like The Beverly Hillbillies but moved to.....the COUNTRY!!! Where I have cows for neighbors instead of people. LoL its been different, kinda loney but I'm surviving.
7. So, this is where I've been. I've been still following each of you but I couldn't get my blogger figured out on my blackberry so I was reading but I felt mute because I couldn't respond. I miss all of you dearly.

I have decisions to make considering working. Josh will be 4 and he'll get to go to preschool!! I still will have Ky and I really don't want to work outside the home. Anyone out there know does in home work still exist?? I guess I could open an etsy shop for something small. I know there's moms who work in home ..now if I could just find some insight thatd be nice!

I'm sure there's things I'm missing but I'm a bit sleepy and the crew is getting up in an hour to get kat to camp!!

Alright, I'm gonna rest my head. Feel free to catch me up on anything I may have missed.

Hugs,

Stephanie

wow....it's been over a month..

Well where do I even begin?


So, its been over a month and some things have changed and some not so much. Without trying to be super crazy throwing everything all out there here's the jist..............


Hubby has been unemployed now for 5 months. Ive managed to keep us afloat with income tax refund along with my school loan refund until now....I'm confident to say without the grace of God we would already be homeless. Yea financially its bad..

The last couple months my husband was starting to get very tired, like totally wore out, super thirsty, drinking fluids like no mans business. ..............any guesses










Well he was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes! Numbers so high they wouldn't register on his glucose meter. Since then (abouts a month) his numbers are in the 200's.. his vision went from bad to worse so much that he is nearsighted now. Its a lot to take in.

Meanwhile, in all this my grades in college started to slip and one by one my classes were stopped and yea last week I officially withdrewl from this semester. I've come so far to lose my road but honestly I can't even wrap my head around all this going on in my life. It seems if I work on school work, then I just care about school but if I neglect it then i'm throwing it all away i'm told. Is there a such thing as not really wanting someone to progress but playing the supportive card???


Well about 4 months ago, he started going to church with me and the kids. If your just planting your seeds in church, having faith and keeping strong is not easy by far. I don't know how to explain it but to say when you let just a little doubt in...........well you scoot back. Long before I knew it, he stopped coming with us. To make matters worse he went back to using a crutch known as pot. I was devistated, sad, mad, angry, i'm telling you like every emotion i've dealt with in the last weeks.

I've went to church trying to let go, give it to God and while i think i do, it subsides back in my heart a day or two later. I mean this whole situation with no work, no job offers, thought we're on the same page and we're not at all......was literally making me sick. My pastors wife told me sunday night..your husband is just about to kill you with the grief you're carrying you have got to let go and let me tell you ....................rain it did..................let it rain..........

The tears, the emotions, it was so strong I couldn't contain myself, I tried to control my emotions and wheew there was no holds bar.

So, this is where me .........where i've been these last few weeks...I know they're are many women out there who are in church minus there mates but they just might deal with it a little bit better than myself......I don't know..

So as I must pull up my boot straps cause my floor is needing vacuumed and if you've stuck around this long..Bless you!!!



Hugs,

Stephanie

Saying Bye didn't actually mean....

I was leaving on a jet plane..don't know when i'll be back again!!


It's been over a month.. GOOD GRAVY N BISCUITS!!


I've even lost a follower...officially..

My life is crazy and filled with all kinds of craziness but I just forget to post about it.


Have a great thursday with lots of hugs,


Stephanie