Praying ... for kayleigh... Praying for Stellan

Little Miss Kayleigh recently had surgery and is recovering..unfortunately she isn't recovering like everyone hoped. In fact, her cerebral cortex isn't working and the physicians believe she actually might be brain dead...

But our god has a plan.. a plan of grace, strength and mercy. Please won't you pray for baby kayleigh at this time. Her parents really need some love and strength. This beautiful little girl was born only weighing just a hair over 1 pound. She has defied the odds more than not and she's so precious. People all over the world have followed Aimee's blog, whether by accident or purpose, AND their life will give you hope, strength, love, grace and feel so loved by our wonderful god.

Please go by and see updates on kayleigh's blog.


http://kayleighannefreeman.blogspot.com/

Also praying for Baby Stellan... He's in Boston and he had surgery this morning..He is recovering..Again ... Many people LITERALLY around the world praying for him today and every day. He is another precious child of god's. His mother MckMama will bless you with her strength, faith and love for her god, the physicians, and her family.

His blog is on the right..

Sending Huge Hugs,

Stephanie

Say it isn't so Saturday..

Well... another one of those posts.. lose for words I'm guessing.. The week has come to an end.. We, I mean I survived .. lol.. really here that it's come down to the end it was so bad after all.. they kinda mellowed out as the week progressed and now I think they're just tired..not so much bored anymore..I really enjoyed taking the break from school and just spending time with my big kids.. My babies get alot more attention from mom during the day.. but life has just been busy with me in school that time gets away and before you know it the day after day is done surpassed. I really am thankful for all my kids, I know they can push my buttons and try my patients but geez, they are still my kids.

This week we kicked off youth week at our church.. It has been great..We've have services most of the nights this week with continuing until sunday evening.. I'm really taken in some new things in my mind, in my heart. Unlike someone that has been always a child of god, I have just been baptized now.. it'll be a year in June on Father's Day to be exact. Anyhow, like I was going on, my faith has been something I always struggled with and along with that just my strength and be able to go and give everything I have to our god is hard for me at times. I know he has a plan for us.. I just got to tune in to listen when he let's me know of mine. This is also something that here in these last few weeks I've been battling. Like I had first said in my last post that I have just had this unsure quiet feeling for some reason. Like I feel lost at time because I haven't figured out my place here in this world. I know I'm a wife, a mom, a child of god but there is something else.. something that god is going to use me for.. If and when I point my finger on it, I'll be sure to update.

So .. I know I had headlined this "Say it isn't so because..." thursday night our church held a skating outing up in springfield and my kids and I all went and had fun. My two older K & J looked so big and they are growing up so fast. Lil J put on his first pair of skates and he was so cute.. he just toodled right around in circles. Lil K just made laps with a cookie in one hand and her binky in the other. And then in one blink of an eye Yep that's right, she was skating along and her feet went out from under her.. and you guessed it she was hurt. We had iced it for a bit and requested prayer for her wrist. K continued to cry and say the pain was too much so I decided we should have it looked at. Three hours later... DRUM ROLL PLEASE..... broken wrist... If you could've been a fly on that wall.. I almost fell outta my chair when the dr. uttered those few words.. He went on to say she broke her Distal radius and that it wouldn't be best to cast it until the swelling goes down. After just a few hours of sleep (that includes momma) and some pain med. She could sit for a few minutes with peace. Last night we had went to service at church and everyone had prayed for her and she could rest for awhile on the seat but she still felt compelled to stand during praise singing. God is so good and is he good part of the time? Absolutely not.. he's good ALL the time and I am so thankful that her brake isn't worse than it is. Giving glory to him in the good AND the bad is so important. Now we wait for monday when we go to see the ortho doctor and he'll decide to hard cast it or leave it in the splint for the remainder healing process.

I couldn't end without adding my boys decked out in there skates.. now could I..



They are calling for rain continuing on this morning and switching into snow.. Snow in March... Only in Missouri do we have unpredictable weather.

Everyone knows Mrs. Stephanie LOVES music.. so why not add a video to make everyone get up and do a couple twirls.. With trying to find my place here.. I thought this video was well felt for today! **Don't forget to pause playlist at very bottom**


Huge Hugs with lots of love,

Thoughts for Thursday

**I warn you.. lengthy post today..**

These are a few of my random thoughts today.. I didn't really feel compelled to just talk about one thing so I thought hmmm. why not just chitter chat about a few things...

I'm not sure where to go from here..These last few days or week I'm guessing I've been really quiet..Not really sure why.. I'm not bothered by anyone thing or upset with any person..Now anyone who knows me .. I'm usually the loudest talker, loudest to holler, loudest to laugh at church.. and of a sudden there is something that has come over me.. I know this sounds totally odd..And now I'm not crazy or going mentally down... I have been praying more and just really taking in 110% in living a godly life.. trying be a good christian woman..

Part of me .. I guess is really hitting me that my husband doesn't attend church with me and my kids.. I feel like there is a peice that is missing between jeff & I. I see couples in our church and they couldn't be closer than peas & carrots. I read blogs that the wife & the husband pray & worship. Can You just imagine... some of you have that.. and are so incredibly blessed but for a second.. I'm thinking that would be the most incredible thing to happen. I know I can't give up... I can't.. I used to think when I was first baptized that it would never come to be that my husband would never make that step into the church doors. I shouldn't think in that way.. I should be positive.. About a month ago, our pastor had given a sermon on MIRACLES. He asked three questions. . 1)Who needs a miracle? 2)How bad do you want that miracle? 3)What are you gonna do to get that miracle? After service they had a alter call and I remember going up to the front and kneeling down. I told god that I had a miracle and I wanted nothing more than my husband to start coming to church and be baptized in jesus name. I said I would do whatever it takes.. I have cried many tears over this .. many.. it would seem when we'd take a few steps forward .. he would slide a few back..

I go on to say this because what ever miracle you are wanting.. do not.. listen here DO NOT give up.. I wouldn't have ever thought that god would give me such peace with my life.. Of course we have our ups and downs on days..and we question why plans happen to change the way they do? But it's not in our hands to write out our plan for life. He has our plan already figured and mapped out.I guess that is why I'm so calm and reserved lately.. I never really undersood how people could go and pray to god and be at peace with their thoughts.. BUT I do now.. I get.. I really get it.. I can feel lost, confused, upset or frustrated and I go and pray, and pray some more.

The other night when I had first read about stellan, MckMama's son I just began to cry, I began to wonder how at one point they are going in the pace of life and the next her son is in PICU with heart problems.. then I read ladies that have went over and beyond to conceive and have precious miracle babies and have such difficulty. Is their a part of me that wonders why I had 4 and here some aren't blessed with just one.. I feel a loss of words at times because what do you say to console them.. No words are going to even compare because I haven't experienced having that sick of a child that requires hospitalization or I haven't experienced the battles of infertility... I don't even think I do as much for them spirtually as they do for me.. They have a light that shines of strength and faith with believe and praise all wrapped up into one.

I am so thankful for the ladies I have crossed paths with online.

These are my random thoughts today

Huge Hugs,




I wanted to add these in at the end here for encouragement.

HANDY LITTLE CHART - GOD HAS A POSITIVE ANSWER:



YOU SAY
GOD SAYS
BIBLE VERSES

You say: 'It's impossible'
God says: All things are possible
(Luke 18:27)

You say: 'I'm too tired'
God says: I will give you rest
(Matthew 11:28-30)

You say: 'Nobody really loves me'
God says: I love you
(John 3:1 6 & John 3:34 )

You say: 'I can't go on'
God says: My grace is sufficient
(II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)

You say: 'I can't figure things out'
God says: I will direct your steps
(Proverbs 3:5- 6)

You say: 'I can't do it'
God says: You can do all things
(Philippians 4:13)

You say: 'I'm not able'
God says: I am able
(II Corinthians 9:8)

You say: 'It's not worth it'
God says: It will be worth it
(Roman 8:28 )

You say: 'I can't forgive myself'
God says: I Forgive you
(I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)

You say: 'I can't manage'
God says: I will supply all your needs
(Philippians 4:19)

You say: 'I'm afraid'
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear
(II Timothy 1:7)

You say: 'I'm always worried and frustrated'
God says: Cast all your cares on ME
(I Peter 5:7)

You say: 'I'm not smart enough'
God says: I give you wisdom
(I Corinthians 1:30)

You say: 'I feel all alone'
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you
(Hebrews 13:5)

Still Going Strong

I wanted to take a minute and say thoughts and prayers are still going up for Baby Stellan with MckMama.. Just reading her post today is something.. her faith, her strength... I don't know if that was my child .. would I be so incredibly strong and at peace with the decisions our god ultimately makes... MckMama is just makes you really think about things... You just gotta read and get to know her...
Please if you wish, hit MckMiracles badge on left for updates and she's also on twitter..


Also, Kami a.k.a Life with Mimi .. is getting ready for retrieval soon... prayers are going up for healthy follies.. a strong lining for these babies to attach soon when it's time... I couldn't even imagine being in mimi's shoes.. and having to experience her trials with IVF. She is an amazing women and she is so awesome to follow as a new blog friend that I am...I have four children and I feel blessed with each one... and in the same breath I can't help but be excited for her coming up retrieval day and then next heading into transfer day... eventhough we might all have a few miles of distance between all of us .. it's like we live right in the same neighborhood...lol...love.. it love.. it .. I can't wait to read the post on the day she says BABY BABY.. definitely will have to get to knitting a blanket... You're
a inspirational child of god..

Okay......Well, day 2 almost down and getting ready to move onto day 3 of Spring Break... So far.. kids are a little bored.. driving each other a little batty.. and me ...can only play referee for so long for you just send them to different sections of the house until they can get along again.. Wheew...

So looking at my to do list I had posted a few days back...

Staying caught up on laundry... Praise god for that.. it seems to be as soon as you catch up like more comes shootin down the stairs.. it almost like it gets dirtied in the middle of the night somehow... hmmm...

Pictures...oh pictures... I got some inside pictures but It has been SUPER windy.. I'm talking about take your hair and blow away windy..If you were wearing a skirt... hope to all goodness it was static clinging to your pantyhouse..lol... Where was I .. oh back to pictures.. we had some rain so it's a bit soggy for outside pictures but I hope to squeeze some in before it rains again..which IS right around the corner.. even I heard the S word.. yea i'm saying SNOW... SNOW.. in march only in missouri would it SNOW in MARCH..

Slowly but surely choppin at the list..I need to put a wiggle in it.. We are having youth week at church with services ongoing until sunday evening.. so every evening from here on out will be busy busy.. It's quite alright.. praising god takes presidence over all of this minor stuff..Praising... Praising...God is very good to us and he is our mighty god that is here at all times... Everyone knows I posted my get up and praise song "I'm free"... Holy Cow.. I heard it in the car yesterday morning and this morning.. talk about goose bumps... I was jammin and clapping and praising and singing like no other...(usually i'm an indoor closet singer) I didn't care who overheard me.. that is the beauty of praising god.. you never look goofy to him.. one might feel intimidated at home, out in public or even in church to sing, shout, dance and praise our god.. but never ever feel embaressed... what matters is your relationship with him..

Until next time and leaving with HUGE HUGS,

**Let's take a Minute**

**I was thinking this evening while in my car that I needed to get onto my blog and post** something said .. now there's something you need to read..

I logged on and hit Baby Veiyah's badge.. (on my blog on the right) first things I read is Please Dirty you Knees...

It's regarding Baby Stellan on

It's his heart.. right now he's in PICU.. unregular beating..

So we know as faithful bloggers.. let's pray...

Mck Mama is such a faithful, christian women with a love of god that just inspires you.. I have found a lot of strength, love in the god she knows that will NOT fail us.. NO MATTER WHAT...

Let's say that again.. Some of us need to breathe that in... GOD WILL NOT EVER LEAVE US NOR FORSAKE US...

It is in your hands oh god.... only you know of this plan with baby stellan.. may you give Mck Mama and Prince Charming peace.. give them strength to make these defying choices in this time...

I praise your name with all of my being, you are a faithfull god and you will never turn your back...

Thank you for reading tonight and please hit her badge for updates and sending prayers up right now...

Huge Hugs,

Stephanie